to every beginning, theres an end.

yes so today, i went chaddy and city.
and i got a saxony shirt for $40 and a ck shirt for $35 :)
im quite happy with such but i cant seem to feel empty.

is it that i miss having someone around? or i miss the good times we had? or could it be im simply missing her.

wen she told me she missed me, it really hurt to see shes holding on. i want to say i miss her too, but i dont want to have to keep her hanging. i dont want her to wait for me, because nothing lasts forever.
to every beginning, there's an end.

MERRY CHRISTMAS

merry christmas to everyone.
thanks for the support throughout the year :)

i hope everybody has a nice christmas and gets tonnes of presents!!!


GET PUMPED FOR NEW YEAAARSSSS!!

pain?

yes it hurts. but i learnt today that being around ur friends at ur worst really relieves the pain. not only because being around ur friends make u happy, its more so they preoccupy u to not think about the pain :)

its more so, when ur alone. whether when ur walking, sitting or eating. u cant help but to think and reminisce about the good and bad times.
every word pops up into ur head. every word, every memory cuts u.

listening to the playlist of songs u both made over the time, every song with a different meaning, telling a different chapter of ur relationship with her.
everytime its 11.11 thinking about her, but have to hide it.

drinking doesnt numb the pain. it expresses it. but i dont want to express it yet.

Last words.

i love you deeply and truly with all my heart. you make me smile everyime you did. you make my sad everytime you are. the hardest thing i had to do, was to be someone i wasnt, someone trying to hurt you. im sorry. when it was dark, you made it bright. when it was wrong, you made it right. when i was lost, you were my light. i will miss you. i love you swanli chew <3

The hardest thing i've ever done.

2 sides of a story

no matter what the situation is, there is always two sides of a story.
people should really hear and understand the OTHER side of the story before making accusations and assuming one side is either right or wrong.

some may say or think im unworthy or undeserving, but all this time they've probably only been hearing one side of the story and already jumping into conclusions titling me as the "bad guy". To be honest, i am a bit frustrated because they dont know or understand, but then again, i don't really care, because i dont want them to.

Unnecessary Pain

Checking in

nothing much to write about, just checking in again :)

hmmmm so basically my very asian parents have decided i must buckle down to do extremely well for my vce next year.... :(
i suppose it is true that i have to work extra hard to make up for the time ive lost in the past by mucking around and shit, but still.....cbf!!!

but yes, this means limiting myself to partying, drinking, going out etc. i know it sucks. :(
so basically, BE PREPARED FOR ME TO NERD UP!!!!

OOOOH and just today me and some friends went to the syndal gym for the holiday program!
We didnt think we'd do much, but it was pretty fun going with like 6 friends just gyming, sitting next to each other and talking and stuff :)
im kinda aching from it, and slept at around 6, woke at 10 to eat dinner =D

i am yet to buy my school books....and im suppose to read like 4 novels before school starts...my last book took me 6 months to read. yeah. :P

anyways, imma go download some more music for a while and hopefuly update my playlist sooooooon!!! brace URSELVES :D

huh?

why is it sometimes when you're faced with a problem, you will go to that person for help or to talk, even though you two havent spoken properly and deeply in ages?

though there are many other people you couldve chosen to text, call watever that night, you chose to contact that particular person.

but once they ask you "wats wrong?" you realise something, and you reply "dw. goodnight."

wtfs up with that?
if you were to reply like that, why ask if they were "still up" in the first place?

im deeply disappointed.

dentist

ooooooomg. the dentist trip was so long...i swear i couldve walked to like...bendigo and back.
=="

but yes, it was an alright experience!! i thoought itd hurt like shit, but not really.....it just tasted really bad...and THAT WOMAN WITH THE SUCKING TUBE THING THAT SUCKS SALIVA OUT OF YOUR MOUTH WAS HORRIBLE AT WAT SHE DOES!! (sucking ;] ) all that minty fresh stuff went down my throat...

but none the less, my teeth does feel somewhat better...

i ate some much stuff!! im getting really out of shape. perhaps wen my arm heals proper, ill resume my fitness training :)

im really thirsty atm...craving like...SOLO....or MOUNTAIN DEW...

just checking in. tttyl!
再见！：）

QUIT DRINKING

okay so basically, lastnight i was the drunkest i have ever been,
i litteraly KO'ed and i dont remember SHIT ALL!!!!

i had way to much to drink throughout the DAYYY THENNN raised the stakes and got wasted at night.

i puked twice =="

and even the next day, i could NOT EAT OR DRINK because of the stomache pain.
i had a headspin everywhere i went....

i do not want this pain in a while, so im going to quit drinking...UNTIL NEW YEARS EVE :D


as we speak, my head and tummy hurts :(

I WOULD IF I COULD. BUT I CAN'T SO I WON'T.

NEW LAYOUT & PLAYLIST !!!

i just changed my layout for my blog :)
why?
because i thought itd be nice to change it up abit :)
keep it spicy and fresh for YOU special readers! :D

+

i just posted a NEWWWW playlist!! it has like 20 songs on it, which means i wont be needing to update it as often :D
dont stress, cos its on shuffle!
enjoy my music updates :)


bye bye !!

SLEEEP TIME

4000 VIEWS

alright cunts. well done on the 4000 effort. it was actually 4000 lastnight, but my net failed to let me use browsers of anysort so yeah.

good work on reaching the 4000 views mark!! imquite happy and shit about ppl reading my stuff.
but yeh, ill keep writing now and then.

ill update my playlist soon, but atm, im just blehhhhhhh

but once again 4000!!!!

WELL FUCKING DONE!! DRINKS ON ME!!! (next century)

Checking in.

omfggg these days ive either not slept enough, or slept wayyyyy to much.
i really just want to sleep JUST RIGHT!! and then use my time properly enjoying each and every hour...
just today, i woke at like 5pm....thats wasting most of my day.
fckn that meant i only have like...8 hours or osmething left to spend.
bleh.
fckn its 9pm now as i post this, but only feels like 3 or 4.

hmmmm....oh yes! i really need to hand in my school forms....im so late D;

and recently ive been bumping into an old friend out-and-about! we've talked a few times aswell, but yeah, keep getting the feeling she doesnt want to talk to me :\

im dying of the heat aswell, thankfully i just had icecream. i just realised how long this post actually is and i shall stop writing...

This is just me checking in on my blog. goodbye :)

isaac

mannnnn theres nothing much to say really. cept that ur gone now, probably forever. althought u might come back for holidays next year...

well firstly a BRIEF story about how we got to u at the airport.
so basically at bh we hung with u to farewell u..on the 17th. we played pool, then ate dumplings then went va.
after va u left. it wasnt a good enough farewell for me, well US.
after u had left we all felt really emotional and just really mised u already. we regretted not having a good enough farewell.
i got home from bh, and basically just jumped on msn and said "fuck it, lets go airport. im down."
and everyone else in rapta that was online: PAUL RICHARD THOMAS all agreed.
we jumped on MOUNT group convo and told others to come. alot of them wanted to come, but really wasnt allowed out.
u told me agian and again on msn that u really didnt want us to come. and that (SORRY TO LET THE PUBLIC KNOW) u cried for 10 mins :(
we argued for about 15 mins about us coming and how u didnt want us to.
u even made a lie that ur flight was in an hour and a half and we wouldnt make it in time.
ha, how do u expect us to believe that? :P we've been ur close frends, we know how u think man.

we begged our parents, i got my dad to drive me paul and richard to southerncross station to catch the skybus to melbournne airport.
$26 a ticket up and back.
on the bus u called us and told us to go back to jordanville station, to get off the bus and meet u there later.u didnt want us to be waiting at the airport for like 4 hours hahaha, but its okay. all of us didnt mind waiting at all, it would all be worth it. but most importantly; seeing u for only an hour or so, then knowing ur going home and then going to airport isnt a real farewell....as long as ur in australia we went to see u. so waiting for u at the airport was really the only real farewell we wanted :)))
so after a long pressure sesh u finally admited ur flight was at 6am to auckland.
we got to airport and we walked aroudn doing nothing for like an hour, and then sat down at maccas to rest up and get some free water. we had like NO money cos we spent most of it on the ticket there. so we starved for quite abit...
then OUT OF NOWHERE AT LIKE 3am!!! ISAAC COMES!! YOU CAME!!
we asked u "why u here? isnt ur flight at 6am?"
u told us that ur parents were coming later, and that u told them ur frends (US) were here waiting for u. ahahaha.
so u shouted us subway which was a very lovely thing for u to do, and made us miss u that much more :)
after taht we went to airport arcade and played daytona 6players :D
it was really good. gave us all something to remember.
ur parents soon came. ur aunt gave u some more money to keep playing daytona AHHAHA :D well done.
we took some photos and a video for memories of ur farewell.
u soon left for the terminal....we were abit teary. but u made a quick leave after giving us all hugs. u left quick cos u didnt want to be to emotional and didnt want to go with tearss. after u left it still hasnt hit is yet that u were gone forever. it only felt like u went on a holiday and wed probs see u tmr once again at bh.
nah man nah.
at the busstop waiting for the bus we talked about our good memories together and it made us smile and it made our eyes a tad watery. but we're REAL men ;)
we got on the skybus and took it to southerncross station.
we all took the glenny line (cept for jay).
on the train most of them were all stoned from being sleep deprived. only me, paul and benny kept the energy going.
me and paul got off at jordanville station whilst thomas richard and benny took it to mount.
me and paul decided to walk it up to his house in rememberance of u and to just have some thinking time.
walking up the hill, the same way to the jordanville park where we use to drinkup.
walking pass the street which u use to live in.
everything made us emotional. we will miss u very deeply.

it only really hit me that u had left tonight at around 12am. wen i was listening to my songs and
"Illmillion - Tell Me" came up, it made me really emotional and teary AGAIN. i had never been so emotional in my life.

im going to link the youtube video of the song here in dedication to you isaac.
we;re going to miss having u around....i just wish we could hang out again tmr at bh.


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O_K9MdPQkXk

chink written exam 16th.

NOOOOOOOOOOOO!!! the dreaded written exam is tomorrow...

so ive really havent studied at all and is now really feeling the stress...
i need some serious help with my chinese....BECAUSE I CANT EVEN READ THE REVISION SHEET!!!!

im quite dead now. im really hungry...i think i might eat to cheer myself up :(

NOTE-TO-ALL: in need for pro chinese user. please relieve me on msn. thank you dearly.

yours truly,
侯懿聪

dot dot dot

somethings are good to express and not keep it inside.
but a lot of the time, its those things that are the hardest to say/write.

it may seem simple, either A or B. But what if either A or B would still lead to a dead end?

this is one of those things that are to complicated to be written about. so id rather not write about it...cept for all that you just read. congratulations, u just wasted 4 minutes of ur life reading about nothing. :D

dix.

DRINKING IS BAD FOR YOU!

DRINKING IS BAD FOR UR HEALTH.
its bad for ur head.
bad for ur body. bad for stuff.

it makes u say things u dont mean.


i guess thats why i just said drinking is bad for you.

<3 drinking 2 nights straight hurts my head. goodbye asswipes.

ILLMOCITY

WOAHH! ive been just youtube quite abit wenever im bored on the laptop now.
i came across this pretty good rap group; ILLMOCITY!!
farkkkkkk they're good :D

i recommend u check them out. well i like them. if u dont, im sorry i wasted ur time...DIX!

3500 VIEWS

once again im back to celebrate another mark on my blog views :)

3500!!! wooooooot!! good effort people! well done!

fanks for actually reading wat i have to write, it makes me feel very special :D

but im a very greedy person....so now that 3500 is BEHIND us in the past, lets move on and AIM for 4000!! :D

so i guess ill be writing a very similar post at 4000, not to far along the track?

but seriously, thanks for the views and stuff, ur the fuel to my blogging fireeeee :D

hello :)

Just gonna post this and then when u come back and check ur blog ur gonna be like wtf, i didnt post this. Anyways, yes u didnt :) I came across something so i decided to check it out. And i guess it still works. Yeah u'd probs change ur pw after this. :) Sorrryyyy, u can delete this post afterwards. Haha :) goodnights. I reckon ur still on msn. I was looking thru and it was like 1.30. Reminded me :) anyways. Goodnights :D And dont worry u can delete it afterwards. Haha

Checking in.

Hi there. yes once again im just checking in.
nothing much to do just thought i should post since its been QUITE A WHILE since my last.

hmm lets see....so update on benny dang-ers injury, the deeply cut arm. hes doing pretty well now.
he had 7-10 stitches, patched up and is now just letting it heal up.
so yeah. good to know hes healing fine.

i recently had an...well i wouldnt say argument...or a disagreement...it was more of a....very serious "TALK" about us and stuff. Well i guess i understand and know where shes coming from, but i have my reasons and i really gotta start getting serious with everything else and cant always make time for her.
but now we're all fine and we're both willing to attempt to make it better and improve whats there to be improved on :P
but yeah. hopefully we'll be fine :D

and i recently got a new phone from optus for free. its the Nokia X6. All touch screen, 5 megapixel. pretty loud speakers. overal decent. its more complicated to use compared to my older sony ericsoon cybershot. but u know....IT LOOKS BETTER!! :D

AND ZOMG!!! JIN HAS JUST RELEASED A NEW MIXTAPE: HipHop Census. By The People, For the People.

it is the SHIT!! :D its basically rap songs by street artists that arent yet signed, that was sent to Jin and he chooses the best ones and he features in ALL of them and puts them together as a mixtape. For those who dont know, Jin is a American born chinese rapper. Hes cantonese but raps mostly in english. Hes regarded as the top asian rapper of all time. He has crazy fckn freestyles and basically rips all his freestyle battle opponents. so yeah. enough blogging for now, but check out the new mixtape cos im in love with it atm (sorry swanli)
if u CANNOT BE FUCKED going through the entire mixtape,
i HIGHLY RECOMMEND one track thats on it: YoungRich Ft. Jin - Moment of Truth

heres the download link: http://www.mediafire.com/?jxm4q22ey1rxxay

anywayssss im tired so yeah, checking in. welldone for reading all that essay shit i just wrote. :) goodnights !

GET WELL SOON BENNY

benny dang-er,

BASICALLY last night at a halloween party, we were tipsy so werent really knowing wat we were doing, he slipped and broke a glass door and got a giant cut on his arm that was FCKN DEEEEEEEEEEEEEEPPPP!! no joke.

we (me paul isaac) insisted on taking him to hospital, but him being a true bro, not wanting to ruin our night, insisted us to stay or go home and shit.
hes exact words as he was losing shitloads of blood sitting down. "PARTY ON WITHOUT ME!!"
hes a true party beast, no doubt.

well yeah, it was a pretty deep cut. we got tissues, a towel, my tie and stuff to try stop the blood.
he said it didnt hurt, it was more the dizziness of losing the blood and stuff.
well soon enough, he left with a frend who didnt have enough seats in the car for all of us, and benny insisted us to NOT GO ALONG.

well for the rest of this story of the night, i cant really be stuffed re-typing it out, so basically just read this which i told benny about HOW we foudn him:

"we went back in and started calling ppl to lift us. nobody could. some ppl had their parents hiding car keys, some werent even home.
so me paul and isaac asked for a lift from...joy i think? with sally.
so we had 6 ppl in a 5 seater.
we werent sure which hospital u were in, although u apparently had membership somewhere, so i was like "BOXHILL HOSPITAL!!!" cos i kinda figured ud go to the closest hospital regardless of membership.
so then we got a lift there, got off and charged for the nearest bh hospitalbuilding, but it was some fckn "development centre" of bh hospital, we banged on the doors and shit, but it was locked. so we started circling the entire fckn block LOL!
every other building was empty and shit, so then we saw a blue yaris drive into the carpark. i ran after it and approached it as the car stopped, the fckn driver looked scared thinking we were gonna jack his car or something....he was a fob.
i asked him POLITELY where the emergency room is. he gave us directions, and we fckn bolted there like Cathy Freeman.
ran pass the ambulance thingos and spotted ur long hair. BAM got u."



GET WELL SOON BENNY!!! <3

1 year anniversary

yes the 31.10.10 was our 1 YEAR of being together :)
it was fantabulous :)
went from city dooooooooooooooooooooooooooown to vermont south to see her after work :)
hanged out for like....an hour, went back to hungry jacks to eat for another hour.
sucksss cos sshe couldnt stay out for long :(
but ohwellss :D
still none the less made my day :D

thanks for the ring baby :) i love it tonnes! and i re-read ur letter like 50 times :)
<3 i love you

NEW PLAYLISTTT ------>>>>

FCKKK YESSSSSSS!!!!
been a very long time..like......24 days since my last paylist update!!
so i have a major treat for you...
dun da dun da!!!!! 15 of my new songs :D

enjoy it like fat boys enjoy icecream coated marshmellows deepfried with cocunut sprinkles :D

FINALLY

FUCKING FINNALY EXAMS ARE OVERRRR!!!
FREEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEDOM!!!

well not really.
but WOOOOOOOOTTTTT!! no mroe study (cept for chinese) LEFT! :D

chink written exam : tuesday 16th of novemember vce centre 3pm. :)

hmmm so yeahs hopefully ill be able to go out sunday afternoon ANNNDDDDD sunday night! :)))

it all started a year from now....well not really NOW now...but near now.
it made me a happier person :) it gave me shelter and comfort wen i needed.
it gave me something to hold, to trust and to love.
the world gave me YOU <3

i love you <3


ANYYYYYYWAYYSSSSSSS...
i feel like partying UPPPPP!!

played pool today :) beat richard and mark. that was good. i think i either improved juustttt a tiny bbit, or i just got alot more luck :) LOL

been going bh quite a bit lately. i dunno why. no apparent reason. i jsut enjoy going. probably cos of the frends there and the relaxing time right afterskoool of just fckn around in a supposedly quiet area :)

well anyways, was just checking in :)))
goodluck to everyone else thats doing exams. :)))

3000 VIEWS

WOW!!! we just hit the 3000 views mark!! woooooot!
well done to u all :D fanks for reading wat i have to write, even though recently i havent really posted due to exams.
:P

yes my exams start NEXT monday.

ADDITIONAL INFORMATION:
-monday : methods & english
-wednesday : business management
-thursday : legal & accounting
-friday night : party up

:)

so i guess i HAVE BEEN TRYING to study my methods, since its the one and only exam im actually concerned about this year.
but im sorry to say ive failed completely trying tos tudy.
ive waste almost 10 hours of my time just doing LITTERALLY 1 question. yes it sucks.

dont believe me? ive only done question 1 b) of 6.7
no joke.

sigh.


but yes. 3000 views, great effort!! fanks for the support and i shall check in another time soon! take care :)))

EXAM STUDIES

holy moly! nerding up 24/7!

ive even got a new book and called it "Exam Studies"
so i divided a 96 paged book into 5 parts.
-accounting
-methods
-legal
-business management
-english

i think its gonna help me become more organised as to my work load :)

but yeaha, just checking in on my blog, letting u all know wats up :))))

OH and i got a free IPOD TOUCH 1ST GEN 16 GIG...FREEEEEEEEEEE!!!

as we speak, im trying to jailbreak it LOL

but yeah, pretty good condition :)

anyways, i shall check in again soon!
ttyl my bloggers :)

my chinese oral exam!

yes so i did it already,
and i bet alot of u are wonder how i went.
well it was really nervous and stuff before i went in...
cos we just sat ourside the corridor waiting for the examiner to open the door to the room we each had and call us in.

it felt like a execution D:

but i had two female examiners! they were pretty nice i suppose :)
asked me easy questions...but i didnt really prepare for them.
questions such as:
-introduce ur skool (WTF MAN)
-what buildings does ur skool have?
-do u have any pets?

yeah.
but overall i think i wouldve passed...or atleast got a reasonable score.
hopefully :S


written exam to go, which is coming up in november :)

chink oral exam tmr.

zomgggg time fliesssss already fckn oral exam!!
nervous as!!

hmmm i think i know wat to do, ive practiced some, but i think ill get nervous wen im actually doing it and wen they ask me questions. so i plan to have a few shots of straight vodka before i go :D
woooot!


and hopefulyl they wont penalize me cos i have long hair =="

ANTWAN DAVO HOU

yes so alot of u are probably wondering, "why the fck did anthony change his facebook name to fckn Antwan Davo Hou???"

its not just for the LAUGHS!!!

ok so BASICALLYYYYYYYYY some service girl from maccas asked for my facebook and name and wanted to add me due to some misunderstanding that i was somewhat interested (FCKN LOUIS LOL) so to avoid the awkwardness i changed me name so she wouldnt find me :D
so far so good, hasnt found me yet...
and i dont think ill be going back to that maccas in a while... LOL

for more details please msn me instead.


ANNYYYHOOOOOWWWW!!!!
so pearnut! i read that post on ur blog :D well done on remembering :D
i thought u like never posted anymore, but i guess i was wrong. btw, my playlist still owns urs :D


AND I ALSO APOLOGISE FOR MY 4 DAY BLOG ABSENCE due to fckn chink oral exam on wednesday/tmr since its 1.54am tuesday now.
so yes, wish me luck. and death to u all that wish otherwise. :D
nah but srsly. wish me luck D:


PS: there was no point of the photo above. it was just for LOL's. dont lie, i know u laughed.

2500 VIEWS :D

WOOOOT i just reached 2500 views on my blog! :)

i thank u for reading the stuff i have to write :)

wel anyways, i came across this on youtube, and its hilarious (NO ITS NOT H&T SINGING!!)

and i thought id share it for the celebration of 2500 views :D


JUST COPY AND PASTE THIS LINK!!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=oCPY96Frtyw

yeeeeah

JANE GAN IS THE FUCKING BEST YO


anthony hou i hate your diagonal hair.

oh and don't forget A&A loser

bye

NEW PLAYLIST

listen :)

changed man LOL!

i swear im a changed man.
i really cannot remember the last time i drank...
but that was probably months ago or someshit....atleast one month ago...
thats a long time.

ive been studying alot recently.

i feel so nerdy.... =="

its beginning to scare me how ive changed without noticing until now.
i think im slowly turning into someone else.

i feel reallly...retarded....LOL!!

i felt as though i was heading in the exact opposite direction maybe 2 months ago? and then i made a complete U-turn and is now heading BACK.
i have not ever felt as much as a nerd than i do right now.

its kinda embarassing really. sigh. oh well. i guess its good for me in a sense.
:)

found it in my photos :D well done mullet

at chaddy we walked past some year7 or 8 girls.
they saw benny as we walked pass.
one girl ran up the the mmiddle one and said loudly.
"HEY! look how long his hair is!"

:) lol.

i know u will read this

i know ur reading this now as i speak. i love you <3 :)





going to study now! hopefully ttys :D

im scared

im really scared.....hopefully its not real.
i never thought it could be like this.

at a time like this i wish to go back in time and undo it all.

maybe its just a combination of overthinking and over complicating.

i just wish its not true.

im sorry. :(

mrhansolism

i would like to introduce to u guys a magnificent music group.
on youtube, theres this guy called mrhansolism, hes music is entertaining :)))

so heres his channel. the comments below was given to hes recent cover for Bruno Mars - Just the way you are.
http://www.youtube.com/user/mrHansolism
(copy to ur url bar)
this will entertain you.

Comments such as:

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MrUnco000
1 day ago 3

i dont know wat it is. but wen i hear ur voices i instantly have a rush of passion and hope.

your music gives me faith that in this world, good things and miracles can really happen. ur talent brings singing and art together, true creativity in this cover exploiting ur strengths and combining both ur natural potential to a whole new level.

pure excellence. i hope to be hearing more from you. thank you for spreading happiness amongst us lucky viewers.



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oscar262626
1 day ago

omg srsly guys. u guys INSPIRED ME.. i m touched when i hear this. thanks guys for giving SUCH great amount of effort for this piece of art.. ur voices changed my life thanks alot guys <3



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Cindee321
1 day ago

ROFLMFAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

LOVE ITT!!!

RE: < 3

hi, i miss you heaps too,
the thing i wish i knew, how to do.
is to fly, to get to you.

i make u smile, u make me laugh.
ur a part of me, my other half.

u like my cuddles, i like ur hugs,
when my hands are cold, u were my glove.
holding on tight, yet soft and gentle,
to my love, ur fundamental.

u like how i whisper, cos i dont want to get caught,
cos if loving you was a crime, they'd take me to court.
now alot of ppl say ur abit too short,
i say ur compact, mobile, easy to transport.
if ur in a mess, tell me, file a report.
ill be right there, ill be ur "Child Support". (ahahahahaah)

u say its cute, when i tell u to come back,
cos id be sad, in pitch black, if its ur love that i lack.

u love tuesdays, i do too.
i look forward to them, cos it means Me and You.

if u like my text messages to you, randomly,
how do u like my love sent to you, regularly.

i love webcamming you too, and ur smiles.
just to tell u 11.11, id walk 100 miles.

a few train stations further, is nothing to me.
to see u safe, id walk on broken glass, bare knees.

i love too many things about you, too much to post,
my love for you, stretches from coast to coast,
and this last line, from anthony hou,
swanli chew, i love you the most. <3 :)

- that was just a reply to her blog post :))) and i decided to put it in a rhyme cos i was bored :P.

forgiven

ahaha i read ur apology :)
its okay. i dont blame u.
i mean it sucks...no doubt.
but u know, shit happens.

another time maybe. but probably not these holidays.
so yeah.

just incase u were wondering, i forgive u EVEN though its not really ur fault.

anyways, goodnights :)
i love you <3

her&him

her:
Well let me make a list.
1. I miss you so much :(
2. Im working saturday and sunday ==
3. Tomorrow night i wont be here, im going to watch west side story musical with my family so i hope you're not going out during the day :)
4. I miss you
5. Op shops make my hands feel sssooo gross LOL but i love cheap bargains :)
6. I hope your shower is fun :)
7. I wish you were here
8. Holy crap i think my mum might come before i finish the list so if it stops suddenly, then ill try come back later tonight.
9. Dear john made me cry so much because it made me think about you, and writing in the blue book :(
10. I want a car to drive to you LOL
11. Its kind of funny how everything i do revolves around you
12. You mean alot to me.
13. -ganstaaa pose- :D
14. I have to go, i love you the most ♥
15. Meyou, always :)

him:
let me make a reply to ur list!
1. gnaw i miss u so much aswell! :))) ♥
2. HAHAHA!! suffferrr!!! so wat time will u be back?
3. ROFL! u and a musical. i can jsut imagine u all excited in ur oversized seat :)
4. i miss u aswell!! twice as much :(
5. feels gross cos it could belong to someone with aids? LOL but then why do u buy them if it makes u feel gross?
6. my shower was alright, wouldve been better if u were there though ;)
7. wanna come over?
8. HAHAHAH!! ur so funny :) well it got to 15, so i suppose she didnt afterall?
9. wats the movie about?? give me a entire summary of the movie LOL
10. ride ur bike beb ;)
11. oh really? how so? :)
12. You mean the most to me.
13. GNAW UR SO CUTE :) ur a tru3 thug 4lyf.
14. gnnnaw will u be back? i love you the mostest ♥
15. Meyou, forever:)

NEW PLAYLIST>>>>>>>>>>>>>>

yes if u havent noticed, i have once again UPDATED my playlist.
please sit back, relax with some cake whilst wearing a pair of stylish glasses.

anywaysss have fun.
PUT THAT THING BACK IN UR PANTS!!! inappropriate :)

LASTNIGHTS ROAM

lastnight i filled my bag with some bread and biscuits and a bottle of water and set off from my house to aarons house which was at jordanville station.
wen i got there i took a piss in the bush. LOL thought u mightve wanted to know :P
then me and aaron walked from jordanville station (his house)
to hansols house which was beyond the school, in syndal. so by then, i wouldve walked from my house (near oakliegh INNNN mount, to NEAR glen waverley).
after that we walked from hansols house to andy chois house LOOOL!! to meet jason lee (the korean).
on the way we passed sam chois house and he gave us bananas for the road. LOL
ANYWAYSSSS.....jason was apparently waiting for us for like...10 mins at andys (cos he lives nearby) but we were late, so he had already walked home.
by then, wen we called him and he said he was outside HIS OWN house, we were already at andys. so we decided to walk to jasons house from andys to prank HIM for ditching.
we got there and wrote a prank note and put some banana peels on his mailbox :D
we called his phone and said exact words (by aaron) : "come out and play."
and hung up =D
we hid behind a car/van thing and waited for him to come out. we waited for like...a minute or 2 and a taxi pulled up, and some white guy (the passenger) came out and asked us wat we were doing.
LOOOL
i answered we were waiting for a frend. and hes like "get away from my car."
LOOOOl and i was like "is this ur car. oh okay."
and for some random reason he started telling us off and swearing
"fuck off! go home! nick off!"
LOOOL
and we're like "we didnt even do anything."
and hes like "i know wat u boys were trying to do."
im like "yeah wat were we trying to do?"
and hes like "trying to steal my car."
LOOL so he thought we were trying tosteal our car.
we were like "u dont know anything mate." but then we left cos ew didnt want him to wake up the other neighbours and then wed get in trouble.
so we walked back to marvins and put in a prank note in HIM AND SAM SEETS mailbox along with some banana peels.
on the note we wrote along the lines of inviting marvin/sam to marvin/sams bbq tmr :)
after that, we decided to call it a night and go home.
hansol walked back to syndal whilst i walked aaron to jrodanvillle which was along the way to my house.
wen we got to aarons place, i got a call from kein cos he was bored. and he offered me a lift home.
so he and james came in jame's car (a guy in uni) and picked me up from jordanville and drove me home :D
i got home around 4.30am showered quickly, changed and went to bed. LOL


goodnnight indeed.

HOLIDAYS

OMGGG HOLIDAYS ARE COMING UPP!!! WOOOOOOTT
finally i get to sleeep in!!!

oh and im feeling really random tonight, so im just going to write random shit.

ANDY: the money i owe u ($2) is now owed by thomas correct?

SAM SONG: tell her mate tell her.

PAUL: brandons sunday?

THOMAS: redye ur hair mate.

RICHARD: get well soon kent.

HANSOL: sorry about the "BLOOD" on various places.

DARREN: SHARE ME SOME JAGER BITCH!


sigh now i cbs thinking of other ppl to name.
there are a few in mind atm, but if i mentioned them, then others will bother me about why i didnt name them.
so yeah.

anywayssss, holidays means haircut :)
i plan to shorten my sidies as it seems to long and sloppy :P
so yeah. ENJOY UR HOLIDAYS!!!

A.S.K VS L.C

me and sam battle latitia and cindee on msn.
we were quite bored.
so yeah.

http://forbiddenaskcity.blogspot.com/
copy and paste the link into ur url bar :)

cmon, WE OWNED THEM :)

her bday

hmmmmm....
so her birthday is coming up!
wat shall i get her...????

i have like NO money.... but i want to get something worth while....
thinking extremely hard...my heads about to explode D:

ANY IDEAS???

random msn convo.

"gnnaww ur so cute, but u lied.
i just died a little bit inside.
i see u want to rhyme about love?
that i can do, ur an angel from above.
love is my speciality, wanna know why?
cos i can relate, its true with no disguise.
u are beauitful, my wish came true,
for christmas, my birthday, i wanted you.
santa told me, i had to be good,
if i did that, he promised he would.
so here u are, with me now,
everytime with u, my heart beats so loud.
like a drum in my chest that i cannot stop,
ill take to eat, movies, and shop till u drop.
me and you together equals what?
mathematical question, answers love."

- that was wen she sneaked online after a hard tiring prom night just to talk to me. she lied about drawing something she didnt :) (if that was wat u guys were wondering about)

is it getting better?

i feel like its sorta getting better between us. but the feeling just isnt the same...
it doesnt feel genuine....i dunno maybe im just paranoid...

new blog!

alright so 2 nights ago, me and sam song decided to make a new blog just for us to write random shit and vent and stuff.
this doesnt mean im going to leave this blog. im just going to be writing more so of the rhyming stuffs on that one alongside sam song.

credit to sam for thinking of this good idea and making the team name :)

so yeah, here it is: http://forbiddenaskcity.blogspot.com/

:)

sigh.

it feels like ages....

its obvious now that things have changed. we both want to change it back, but we cant.
all we can do now is cherish wat we have.

NEW PLAYLIST ->>>>

okay so its been ages since i updated my playlist.
so here it is.
enjoyyy :)))

city

i dont know why, but it feels like its been ages since i last bummed in the city.
i was suppose to study today, but obviously that didnt really work out.
it feels good to feel, in a sense, free.

i know i have alot of sacs and assignments dued next week, but i really cbs thinking wat i have. i know i have SOMETHING, but not sure of wat....
hmmmm...

i miss the feel of excitement. its really lacking recently.
i dont feel very alive.
im the type of person who cant sit still in their chair, so atm u can imagine how much it sucks for me.

BOREDOM POST

yes once again its one of my bordem posts...
nothing much to write about...but felt like writing :S

hmmmm, so these few days ive been extremely tireedddddd, sleeping after midnight for like weeks now.

i just wish i could sleep in for once =="

nothing else to write really :\

oh wait, yeah, things have been differently lately. we dont see each other often at all anymore. its not like something in particular is wrong, but i guess its just how it is. we never call anymore, she gets her phone taken off her at nights, we dont see each other for more than 5 minutes at skool. we dont see each other at all out of skool.
things are changing, change is good. but some things, i wish would stay the same forever.

goodnight readerssss :)

go with the flow?

recently, i felt a change,
constantly, changing lanes.
where do we stand? i dont know,
im lost, confused, where to go.
what happened, to what we were,
left to right, like transfer.
i swear we were doing great, until now,
again, u shoved me into the crowd.
i dont blame u, its not ur wrong,
i understand u have bonds to keep strong.
that is why i resist and i take,
every hit, set backs coming my way.
although things werent fantastic,
did nothing, nothing drastic.
kept on going, like things were fine,
deep inside, wondering were u still mine?
thinking together do we still shine?
or me and you, both outta line.

lately something changed the view,
i did something, i wasnt meant to do,
all night ur mum had ur phone,
i called, just to hear ur sweet tone.
i cant believe i was so stupid,
my memory, overtaken by cupid.
i was scared, about to lose it,
insanity coming just to visit,
ur bombarded with questions and thoughts,
i cant do much to support.
its now down to u, what you really want,
write the same way, or change the font.
things got u questioning, about us,
"Is he mr right? or am i careless."
"Is this real or am i blind?
take it to far, can not rewind.

u need to decide on wat is right,
to take landing, or continue flight.
consider everything carefully,
differentiate wat u want, wat u need.
not about me, its about you,
not wat we are, but wat is true.
last thing i want, is u to hurt.
"promise to keep u safe", i assert.
its that claim, i plan to follow,
let it go? i dont want to,
wat to do? i dont know,
continue the show, go with the flow.



<3 goodnights. hope to see u tmr.

FANCY DRESS

alrightyyyyy so for fancy dress dated at 27/08/2010

me, thomas, andy, eric and sam dressed up as ninjas :)
i learnt how to use nunchucks for two days just for that night :D

it was a pretty good night :)

i made my own costume :)
we took alotta photos, well...alotta ppl took photos with US :)

we ran around taking ppls stuff and theyd chase us around the place, and wed confuse them by PRETENDING to give it to another one of us :)
it was fun =D

after that, we left at 10.30.
we ditched the afterparty and instead went to hansols place to showdown with him.
he had a watergun, while the 6 of us only had paper stars and our fake weapons.

we hid in shadows, behind cars and trees waiting to ambush him! :)
we had hima few times, i nunchucked him in the arm.

but he got us with waterguns....no fair.. :(

after everyone had left, me and hansol cruised in his mums car around his neighbourhood.
come to m suprise, hes a really good driver. cept for the fact he does 30 in a round about.... LOOOL!!
road hoon.

as i was in the shower u said....

   swanli         says:
*have a nice shower
*ill just keep talking to you here :)
*even though i know you wont reply :( but you'll have something cool to read when you come back :)
*so yeah ! :) i like going out with you :)
*im reading your blog atm, and listening to the music on it.
reading the post makes me smile so much :)
*i love you majorly very much (L)
*hm since i have nothing else to do, let me tell you some reasons why :)
*well, i know i always say that being around you, i can be myself.
but seriously, thats SO true.
like, with other guys, it always felt like i still had to impress them, even though we were already dating.
you know?
*with you, i WANT to impress you, but i don't feel like i HAVE to, because you're just so understanding :)
and you always make me feel good about myself, and you help me love myself :)
*oh and even though you bag me mostly, its funny and cute :)
and you always listen to me, and i can tell you everything :)
i can kind of treat you like a friend, but you're more than that?
hahah you're like my bestfriend and boy in one :) its awesome.
*hm, lets see.. what else ... oh oh , you still give me butterflies :)
i know its been 10 months almost, but everytime you look at me, everytime you kiss me and everytime you hold my hand
i still feel like how i did the first time :)
*i love it :)
*anyway i think this is gonna make your head hurt reading, so ill talk to you when you're back
*i love you (L)



- You officially made my entire year. that was the most beautiful thing ive heard anyone say to me. i love you baby, alot and forever <3

today :D

so its been quite a while since we last hung out PROPERLY.
but today made up for it all :)))

brief run down...
so today we went to a birthday party together. :)
although i didnt know anyone there (cept for laura) i had a goodtime just hanging out with u :)


although we lost the first pool game...we came back to win the second :)
and it wasnt JUST cos of me, it was teamwork, OUR WORK :))))

afterwards, wen they went to eat, we bailed to buy some dvds u needed to buy :)
so we walked for quite a bit actually LOL, but holding ur hand made the time fly,
i wish the walk went forever, so i wouldnt have to let go <3

NEXT, we went to eat :)
ur so cute and beautiful :) i felt like the luckiest guy in the whole world, being able to sit across the table from u. <3

i found it really cute how we kept on switching our meals :)))
and the way u say CHA SIU! :)

wen we were done, we walked out to go get our bags from the locker in state library, ONLY TO FIND, state library was closed D:
my bag and ur jacket was in the locker D: which i had to get next morning.

i was more worried that ud be cold, rather than my bag.

we went back to glen waverley together :) it felt so good how we held hands and laid our heads ontop of each others :)
ON THE WAY, we did a little detour.
and took the next train back to glenwaverley :)

after u left, i sat on the train all alone, wishing u didnt have to go :(

right now as we speak, as im writing this, i miss u alot :(
i know this probably isnt really nice, but i hope that u actually do wake up at 3am again and call me :(
i miss ur voice
well its quite late, and im suppose to wake up in like.....5 hours LOL
so yeah, goodnight baby, i love you. <3

goodnight blogger :)

blocked

okay so the other day, i was with a frend.
he signed into his facebook and came across a post u made.
suprised, cos i thought u had deleted or deactivated ur facebook...
soooooo by then, i kinda figured u reactivated it or something.

to see how u were going, i tried to search ur name.
but shocked to find, u werent there.
so it has come to my mind that u had blocked me from ur facebook.

at first, i was like "oh wth."
but now i guess its not really that bad, i cant blame u. not after all that.

so i guess u REALLY do want me out of ur life huh?
in that case, alright. done deal.

new playlistttttt ---->>>>

OMG its been quite some time since my latest post right...?
well atleast it feels like it!
sorry, ive just been OBSESSED with LORD OF THE RINGS FOR THE PAST 3 days!!!
i finished all three movies!!
i highly recommend u watch it. its alot more intersting and ACTION packed the second time u watch it, cos i guess ur older NOW and u understand the concept better...trust me, jsut watch it again, ull love it!! :)))) <3

hmmmm so wats going on? methods is being a dick, havent had the average required to do it next year...i shoulda tried harder for the last sac. awell...
so i need to try and study REALLY HARD to be able to do it next year....so thats my excuse if i dont post anything as often.

ive also noticed that some of my blogging frends havent been posting as often either. i suppose after some time u just cbs...
but keep posting!!! i read ur posts!! :)

and chinese zomg, so in regards to the oral sac, its been postpooned to THIS saturday...
so again im in the same sitation, i told myself last week this week would be my chink study week, but obviously i slacked off again, and now im sitting at my laptop wtfing...LOL

so in regards to any outings or parties i cannot attend, its due to my chink and methods. so please forgive :)

ANYWAYS, today, there were parent teacher interviews :D which means DAY OFF!!! dix on u avlia only half day. and DIX on u EVEN MORE GLENNY, only last period off! hahahaha!!

so yes, i met up with my special bird today :) <3
we havent had the chance to hang out cos of all this drama on her behalf and all this stress on mine.
so today was good. :D

i feel so fat, had so much foodd...
well yeah...

SOOOOOOOO!!!! other than just letting in to u readers wats been going on lately, heres some songs :)
enjoy them as i have :)

CHINK SAC TMR!!

omgg.....stressingg...
chink oral sac tmr...
im not ready at all.
and if i dont do good in this, my teacher says he'll fail my 3&4 :(
i cant seem to be able to memorise my detailed study within 2 nights.
LOL
probably should have started earlierrr...

my general conversation is just wtf. its not even MINE.
i took jess's :) thanks :)
havent had a chance to memorise that either...

jason lee's class says their sacs been postponed...
so im hoping that goes for the entire year level..
but yeah, something tells me its not. LOOL

awell.
im hopinggg.....

la-titty

quoted directly from lastnight:
"very gooood, super glue a smile to your face and add some botox so you cant frown :)),
and thats good, hope it stays that way yeah,"

gnnnaw :)))

Yung Ram - Candle in the wind

thanks to ricardo :) im officially addicted to this song :)))
its quite meaning full with awesome lyrics. i reccommend everyone to click this link or copy and paste it into ur browser bar, play and listen :)
its a jizzable beat :)))


http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=MCdya_LYH5c&feature=related

HorseFaceHelmetPerson

yes u guild master guy. LOOOL :)
yes it does remnind me of blog msn :)
that was awsome fun :)

wenever i get the chance :)
no dude...that sounds scary..its probably one of ur "specialfriedrice.com" shit =="
LOOOL

pearnut

howdy doodle poodle noodle! :)
yes i read ur blog :(
wen i was sad i actually missed u and was looking for u to talk to.
but i couldnt find u.
awell, the hard times have passed now,
me and her are good.
but just for the record, i miss u too :(((

and to put this out there, nothing changed after the tomato on my hoodie accident LOOOL
it was just fustrating, but now im good :)

anyways. whether or not we talk as much as we DID, we're always best of frends.
ur definatly up there on my podium thing, irreplaceable :)

wat happened?

so i thought we made up last night and everything was alright.

today wen i saw u at lunch. u were acting all silent and moody.
i tried to find a excuse for u so it wouldnt be awkward and asked if u were tired.
u replied yes.
i kept trying to act like nothing was wrong and tried to cheer u up.
but it obviously wasnt working.

u went to ur singing lesson right after, only left with a wave. even though i walked with u there.

i disregard.

afterskool u had choir, u AGAIN went up the stairs to the music center with nothing but a wave goodbye even if i walked right next to u.

i tried to disregard again.

u told me that u would be out after 4 oclock, lastnight. i waited for u....u hadnt come out, and i was worried u had already left. i sat outside waiting just incase.
i look inside the music centre from the windows, i see a clock on the wall saying 4.15
u finally come out. i waited for 15minutes.

...... :\

u said u needed to go to the toilet.
ok fine.
u went in there and stayed in there for like 10 mins as i was waiting outside not knowing at all why u were taking so long.
soon enough inside i had an idea. u were changing for work.
ha...how foolish i was to think u remembered.
i tried really hard to make myself believe u werent....
but u soon walked out, revealing u did.

alright so that didnt really matter. cos its not my reason to see u today.

u asked me what we're gonna do now.
by then i was pissed. u ask me wat we were going to do right after u went against everything planned.

i answered i was going to badminton and u should get picked up now.
i hoped ud say no, u wanted to stay with me and u were sorry.
as expected, u pulled out ur phone and called ur dad to pick u up.

we walked outside badminton. i walked into the front room and u kept on walking. i stopped and asked u where u were going.
u answered saying u were going to wait outside to get picked up.
then u soon changed ur mind saying "fine. ill come inside."

no. i didnt force u to do anything. dont answer with a FINE. u can go wait outside if u want.

u sat down and pulled out ur phone. i couldve went inside and left u waiting outside, like wen i was waiting for u in choir.
but no i didnt, instead i sat down, with our bags in between us.

a few times i wanted to just turn around and say "wats wrong with u? we made up already, why do u have to get all moody and act like things arent the same."
but i couldnt bare to see u sad.

i held the anger in.

ur dad came. u had to go. in my mind i swore at myself, regretting not making up before u had got picked up.
u gave me a meaningless, cold "watever" kiss on the cheek and left.

i was fuming.
i never ever show if i was sad or angry infront of others, i dont only say this but i actually dont. i cant help myself but to be happy around others. its just me.
but today i was just sooooo angry that u had to make things so difficult.
everyone asked me wat was wrong. in my mind i laughed to myself, "i dont even know myself."

u got moody, and at the end of the day made it seem or feel like i was the one to blame. i dont say this just to make myself feel better.
but i seriously feel that u actually thought i was the one acting all up and throwing a tantrum.

worse thing is, i dont get a call, text, or anything afterwards.
u probably dont even know wat u did. and after lastnight saying i should tell u because u wouldnt know everything going on...

point granted that u shouldnt know everything that goes wrong in my life.
but it would seem quite obvious after u ruined all we agreed on lastnight, and act like nothing went wrong and there was nothing for me to get bothered over.

even at this very moment, ur probably thinking im so childish or immature for acting up after lastnight.
but just for the record, i tried to make it cheerful today, but YOU were the one being cold, showing me down, forgetting our agreements.

the worst worst worst thing about all of this was it happened 2 nights ago, over something i dont even know of. u still hadnt had the decency to tell me.
im still lost as to how this all happened.


this is a really long post and i didnt re-read this.this is just me venting. so if any of the above made no sense then fck it.
if u read this and thought wtf. then yes i agree. wtf.
because of this i cant even study for my chinese sac on saturday. and if i fail this i wont be able to do 3&4 chink. so well done on the worst timing ever.

i have nothing else to say but "wat happened?"

i thought i would be there for u whenever u needed.
but obviously u had other things in mind.

im sorry to think u might want to share ur problems.
i really should start to mind my own business.
i promise thats wat im going to try to do from now on.

the bloody volvo driver!

julieeeee says:
*not saying it will but if it does happen and someone breaks ur heart into a million pieces and it seems impossible to piece them together...just know
*ive got super glue



gnnawwww :)) thanks for being there julie!
u kinda rock my world. LOOOL




ps. thomas, i love you too.

since when?

i understand u want to deal with it urself and be less "RELIANT" on others...

but....

since when did "WE" become "me" and "you"?
since when did "OUR" problems become "my" problem?
since when did i become "others"?
since when did i become a "good friend"?
since when did "sharing" ur problems become "dealing" with ur problems?

so when will i become ur "past"?

no big deal.

why wont u just tell me?
cant u just make things easier? do u HAVE to make things just that little bit more difficult?
it fustrates me that u admitted something was up, but didnt want to tell me.

if u really dont trust me enough to tell me, then okay.

u say its no big deal, its a big deal to me.

maybe its none of my business. maybe i care too much.

if thats the way u want it, fine. i wont care.

hi

yes it all started with a simple hi to get the conversation started.
things were really awkward at first, but then the tension sorta loosened.
well for me atleast.
i hope in her mind she doesnt hate me....
probably swearing under her breath as she types D:

how do i make u feel good, u ask?

so tonight u asked me "how do you make me feel so...good?"
and for u dirty minded people out there, this is not meant in a sexual sense, instead, its emotional :)

but hmmm....i dont know how to say it....but i guess as to HOW do i make u feel so good......its really easy. All i do is to tell the truth :)
You are great in so many ways, i could blindly pick anything out and it just makes u "feel good"

making you feel good about yourself is my duty, it's wat i DO.
WHEN I SAY:
"You're beautiful" - you are extremely pretty and amazing
"You've got lovely eyes" - i always get lost in your eyes.
"I wake up every morning, just to see you." - you are my life's motivation.

WHEN I:
*hold YOU - i never want to let go.
*kiss you - i want to remind you i love you.
*smile - im thinking of you


i love you = i want to MAKE u smile, i miss you every minute im not with you, you're always on my mind, with you i feel comfortable, holding your hand completes ME, hearing your voice melts me, i cant be myself without you, you've become part of me.

Being with you makes me HAPPY.

*thats my question*

swanli: "me<3you"
anthony: "meyou. thats better cos nothing comes between us"

goodnight.

NEW PLAYLIST ->>>>

again, i have updated my playlist :)))
ive been capped last month so ive been behind in my music downloads...
so i have alot to catch up on :)
so if were u, i wouldnt be surprised to see my playlist change a tad more often than usual :)))

but yes, playlist 04.08.2010 ;; enjoy :)))

i'm smart!

swanli: "Ahahahahhahaahahahahah over all the time ive dated you thats the smartest thing i have ever heard you say. "

anthony:"ahhahaahh!!! that is not the SMARTEST THING.....ive said.
i say many smart things :(
smart things like.....you + me = ♥
see that was like specialist maths right there!!!

and when u add the two cells, swanli and anthony u get swanthony
abit of science...

31st of october anthony and swanli began to date. and merged to one heart and one soul :)
a littttleee essence of historyy :P

it was outside swanlis house in glen waverley, located in eastern melbourne in australia, that the question that changed anthonys life was asked.
geography :)))))

the word beautiful has been changed of its meaning, it is now a noun, referring to those called swanli.
ENLISH :)))

anthony must market himself in such a way to meet the needs of swanli, the consumer.
business 8-)

as swanli has some assets ;) shes liable for some action owed to anthony ;;;;)))
accountingggg!!

it is against the law for anthony&swanli to be apart.
legal!

我爱你。♥
lastly, chinese :) "

swanli:"omg that was by FAR one of the cutest things you have ever done :)
Oh btw, kinda ironic how you were trying to be smart and spelt english, enlish :) hahah naw but you're still soooo sweet :)

Sadly, i cant read the chinese :( but thats okay, im quite sure i can guess what the three characters said :)

Ahhh smiling so much atm, i love you ♥"



- see, i can be smart :)

oh wow

so last night was retarded.
it was like an adventure for me and sam, walking from jordanville to holmesglen to pick up drinks, then back and to a park near jordanville at like....8-11pm?

dogged us out, fck you's.

well anyways, i dont remember much from lastnight...as i drank bottle by bottle, things got fuzzier and fuzzier, things got harder and harder to remember....
i THOUGHT i saw her....but im not to sure...
well the thing that bugged me all night even right after they went drinking, i went to aarons place then home. throughout the night even RIGHT AFTER i "THINK" i saw her, i felt badddd......cos i dont think i even said hello or smiled at her :S

wen i got home i was like to myself "holy shit, i HOPE its not her...if it is, i was sooooo rudeeee..."
so this morning, wen i saw paulskis (shoutout to him) i asked him if she was there. AFTER dinner at jordanville...
he said "i dont think soo.."
i was SOOO RELIEVEDDDDD
but THEN, he changed his mind..."wait. actually, yeah she was."
BAM. my eyes were about to roll out of my freaking eye socket.
i felttt sooo baddddd..... i cant believe i acted like that...now she probably thinks im some stuck up bastard whos to snobby and arrogant to even acknowledge her.
dammmmn that was gay.

id slap me if i was her. through all that. no hi.
well i hope that this means something, and i hope that some retarded internet error or wateva happens to send this particular message to her randomly :S
"im sorry for the way i acted, im sorry for the things ive said, im sorry for the pain ive caused. i dont beg for forgiveness, nor do i beg to forget. i just wish things didnt turn out the way they did."


sigh that was really lame of me. writing to myself about her.


ON ANOTHER NOTEEEEEE which hopefully would cancel out that lameness i put u readers through.....
aaron ur house has the best cookies :)
i like.

and...ZOMG GREYLEAD LOOKING PACERS FROM MONASH ROCK MY JOCKS!!!! :D

and...i met ur parents at monash uni! woot woot! :) apparently ur mum thought i had a nice smile ;) im in for the win. jokes :)
ur dad seemed like a average joe :) which is nnoooiiceee :)
and u looked taller! as i would always say, i like the new height ;)


ANNDD...
legal sac tmr. fck u skool...fck u....
OH and that just reminded me.
chinese skool teacher, if u stalk me and happen to read this. i fckn hate u.
who do u think u are...bagging me in chink, thinking i dont understand...i dont give a shit about wat u think about the way i sit nor wat haircut i get. how bout u go learn some proper english, THEN try to translate chink to us. ur a gay guy.

and choiboi. if u read this, i hope things workout for u and KitKat ;) u know wat im talking abouttt...

omg this post is so long. so thanks for reading, i really doubt anyone could be stuffed at all reading this much. so yeah i dont blame u if u dont read it. i guess i just want to find a excuse not to study for my legal sac....and just randomly wrote out most of my thoughts in the 2 days.

oh and if u actually DO read THIS particular line, u just won a prize.
-dun da dun da-!! a....FREE IPOD TOUCH!!!! please talk to paul nguyen to claim ur prize. thank u and goodbye.

9 months

okay so YESTERDAY marks our END of 9 months :))))
i must admit, with you ive never been happier :)
i cant imagine surviving without you.
im sorry that i wasnt with u on the day, and instead i was out.
but i really wanted you to come with me :( but yeah, u didnt want to :P
and sorry for the phone call thing :S

but i really love you <3
atm, this day, marks the beginning of our 10th month :))))
woooot!
im really glad we're together, as swanthony :D

i love you baby <3

awkwarddd

so this post is about my frenchy frend.

omggg saturday at karaoke...i cannot believe u were outside as we walked out.
i was scareddd....i walked out saw u....and just like pushed my way to the back of the group.
but obviously i thought it was stupid...so i walked back out again and said hi.
but i could feel it, u didnt really want to talk to me..ha?

mmm its okay though :P

i still cant get over how fast it just collapsed...our frendship i mean.
it was all so quick :S
now we seem like total strangers...to wierd to say hi....to awkward to keep talking.

well i dont really know, but u seem pretty okay now, even though u dont really talk to me...but yeah, u seem like its all over.

i suppose thats good.
mmmm well now i feel alot better venting my thoughts out on my blog. so to u readers, dont bother asking me who my frenchy frend is, because we're strangers now.

its okay

we havent really "TALK" talked in ages. well quite some time.
well i suppose its a good thing that we have nothing INTENSE to discuss about,
cos we usually TALK talk wen something bad is down.
so i guess u could consider it a good thing.

but in all honesty, i feel like we havent been communicating as well as we DID.

its wierd cos id expect myself to feel really bad and fustrated about it and stuff,
but to my suprise im not :) i guess ive grown to adapt :))))

so if u feel bad, dont. i mean it this time wen i say, its okay.

BOREDOM POST

so yes, another BOREDOM POST :P


METHODS, ACCOUNTING ANNNNDD ENGLISH OUTCOMES ARE OVER :)))
two more to go though, legal and business D:

so im quite relieved...since all 3 of them were this week :)

but the stress of FUCKING CHINESE SKOOL STUFF is getting to me.
i get fustrated knowing i have so much to do in so litttle time.
but i just CANNOT concentrate or can be stuffed doing it.
sigh.

OH! SHE'S with her cousin from canada! :) sounds pretty cool! hope they're having fun! :D

OHH! and ive made up with my french frend now. well a few days ago. yeah....things turned out normalish. but its just wierddddd and awkward. but im sure that feling will pass and we'll be good friends again :)

oh HI pearnut :) LOOL
i duno wat to say about you. but hi if ur reading this. which u probably are! :P

and MR.PHILO, i hope ur making the right choice. u could be losing something more than u think. goodluck tmr man.

101th post :)

yes this is my 101st blog post :)
its quite a event :))))

very proud i actually took blogging on board, its kinda helped me vent and express myself throughout the time of need :)

hmmmmm
wats up....soooo...methods sac, accounting sac AND english oral is tmr...
not prepared AT ALL.

i got dogged today. FUCK U MATE IF UR READING THIS, i mean...CUNT =="
LOL

hmmmmmm....
yes so i probably SHOULD post something, since they specially MENTIONED on their blog i should post something about themmm....
hmmmm..so...first thing i want to mention, u cried. fckn pussy. LOL jokesss :))))
gnnawww i hope everything gets better. im sure ull be a good girl and not wag anymore, eveyrhting should be alright then :)
yeah, uve been quite nice to me. and yeah. thanks :)
i dont really know wat to write, but u should feel special ur in my 101th post.

LOOOL u apparntly got hurt cos of THIS post :(( im sorry.
ill add this bit on though :))
thanks for treating me as a real frend :)
but u really need to tell me wats wrong :( alot of the times u deny it until i FORCE u to spill the beans. u should tell me, i want to know :(
and yes. since day 1 we had a special connection, maybe cos ur a dude also, but we became besties in a night :))) i remember how we texted each other at my bbq the next morning wen i got like....4 hours of sleep! ahhahahaha!! that was funny.
oh and the webcam sessions were gold :)
especially now that u got toady :D
well anyways i hope u read this and go "gnnnnnawwww, he remembers"
i love you. WOOOOOPPS typo, sorry i mislead u :))
LOOOL


now...hmmm...to the bros :)
u brotherly cunts (cunt is the new mate) just yes. thanks for being there for me wen i needed, cept for the dog that made me carry my books in the rain alone ==" bitch. LOL

now to the special someone. hi there :)
we've been through quite a bit recently. we nearly destroyed wat we built :(
but the thing is, we're all good now, so thats wat really matters :)
i hope that nothings changed, well if so, for the better :)
i love you :) <3

wat else....okay so quite a few outings are dued soon in the up coming weeks.
im living off $30.
sigh. i think i need some money ;)

uhhh....and a little thing to go out to my french frend. things have changed... we dont talk to each other anymore. ive seen u around mc and stuff, but i dunno, i just feel this coldness. we're like strangers now. im sorry for the pain that ive caused. but i really do miss our frendship. hope all goes well :)))

oh and this really awesome tit that i met not long ago at frends birhtday. yes she is quite cool aswell....supposedly shes the fastest in her soccer league. LIES. must be a pretty shit league. LOL joookesss :) yeah shes nice to talk to. it feels like ive known her for ages...although its been like a weeek only :P

and now to the philo ESPECIALLY. all i have to say if ur reading this is, protect the ones that u love. smack those two fat and skinny white trashes. but mate, ur a true blue :)

to choi boy, i hope all goes well with u and ;;;;;)))) cos u know, through all that, i really think u guys deserve each other :) hope she likes the present we chose :D

to tomfirefag, happy fckn birthday dude. LOL abit late...but yes. dont doubt urself, u just havent met the right one yet. and as to ur studies, i think u should get a new swivel chair, its good for ur back, maybe thatd help u concentrate. :)

and as for the springy dog. FUCK U ditched ME!! yes i was alone in the rain carrying my methods book ==" faggot. but yeah u know, been bros for way to long to hold a grudge against u, if u read this, im over it. see u next sat. LOOOOLL!!!!

hmmmm lets seeee....mr.2pm.
yes a special post to u cos ur going to korea soon D: fuck man...i know we havent been frends with each other than the rest of those cunts. but mate. i'll miss u heaps :(((( ur the least dog man. uve stood by me in time of need. well done cunt.
and shout me tickets to korea wen u hit bigtime. we'll rock those korean ladddddieesssss ;)


and to whoever that just went through all the trouble just to read wat i had to write, thanks for reading my thoughts. it means something to know that someone cares about wat i have to say. :)))
about to eat dinner noww....
so LUHTERSSSS!! :))))

ps; if u read this ur special to me. but gay. :)

Usher Ft T.I - Guilty.

i dunno

ive been leaning on both sides. ive thought about it...
but i cant...i cant bare it.

ive tried....its unbelievably hard, especially knowing there are other things that are on ur mind lately.

this isnt the best time this came up.

im sorry for being hot and cold....
ill keep on trying.

maybe the same thing is on ur mind. and ur in the same situation.
i really dont know.

the last thing i want is to have u in pain....

ive changed

ive been thinking.
many different things to think about..
ive realised that there isnt always only 1 solution.
im trying to turn around and see wat the other sides all about.

imma change.
i promise u i will try to be the guy u want me to be.
trust me. i will try to never let u worry again.

i know its going to be hard, but for u, id do it.

i didnt know

i think i get it now.
i listened again and again. i couldnt understand.

until i came across "time and time again"
i got it.
although ive heard it many times, i finally understood it.

im sorry.
i dont know wat to do. i dont want to make a empty promise.
but i dont want to hurt u.

wat can i do......?

NEW PLAYLIST ->>>>

okay so i thought ppl might get annoyed wen going on my page and random songs start playing and the singing sorta puts u off reading.
so i took the liberty of finding just the tune playing in the background as u read.
i quite like it....but yeah.
After my last post, i was in a very rhyme-y rap mood, so i updated my playist with some rap songs im into atm =D enjoy faggggss =D

u asked me why

So you wanna know, why i love you,
I could write a whole book, and have it reviewed.
But im getting tired, and i dont have all night,
So i'll briefly explain, answer ur question why.

Number one, you truly understand me.
What i think is right, ud always agree.
Supporting me, in everything i do,
When i wanted something, ud tell me to pursue.
You keep my head up, when it is down.
When i fall, u pick me up from the ground.
You are my medicine, you are my cure.
With you next to me, i feel secure.
No matter what im feeling, or what im going through,
You're always here, to bring me outta the blue.
You've got a sweet voice, and a gentle touch.
Getting to this point, i miss you so much. :(
I enjoy everytime we're on the phone,
Hearing you speak, i know im not alone.
One simple kiss from you, takes me to the stars.
Jumping outta my chest, there goes my heart.
Holding your smooth hand, makes me smile.
Just seeing you, its all worthwhile.
Its amazing when, i look into your eyes,
i swear for a moment, im hyponotised.

People say; inside ugly, outside beautiful.
But obviously, that dont apply to you.
You should know, you are my light of my life.
Brighten up my days, this all feels right.
I dont like to lie, so heres the truth.
No matter what happens, ill always love you.
<3

i love you swanli =D

im here for u

girl:
"Sorry that im always surrounded by drama and you always get dragged into listening. I know you're thinking that 'its okay' but im still going to apologise anyway. Thanks for being here for me anthony, and sticking through everything. i love you."

boy:
"no no im not being DRAGGED into listening, im chosing to listen. i want to listen :)
and i know its pretty cliche saying this, but ur problems are my problems :)
i dont say this cos i have to. i've got a pretty damn good reason why i said that =D
its cos wen u have problems, ur sad. and wen ur sad im sad, cos i dont like seeing u sad :( i want to see u smile :)
so wen u have a problem, it directly effects me :(
i want to be there for u. i want to be the shoulder u lean on. i want to be the person u yell at wen ur angry. i want to be the tissue that wipes ur tears. i want to be the arms that hold u.
so u dont need to apologise for anything, its not ur fault that i love you :) ♥ "

- you know who u are ;)

talk

its been a while since we last d&m'd
i could feel uve closed up abit. maybe cos we havent talked in such a long time.
but just to let u know, since we last talked, i havent changed.
id still tell u MOST things. i dont want to say ANYTHING, cos thats a big word and there are some things that i really cant tell a soul.
so yeah.

but thanks for letting me in on apart of ur life and sharing with me ur load.
i must admit it did take alot of convincing for u to open up again :P
but im glad u eventually did.
the problems u THINK u have arent true. i can point out many things to just prove to u that ur worthy and that its not as bad as u think.

thanks for a night of sharing and care :)
goodnight gunboundgod.

"nicknames aren't to be taken, but to be given."

BOREDOM POST (2nd of the night)

okay i know. i alraedy posted a bordem post...
but yes. incase u didnt already know.
im opening up a title called "BOREDOM POST"
which i just post random shit about wats going on wen im bored just to consume time :P

im talking to BUZZINGBEE1 ATM as we aspeak.
yeah shes pretty cool :)))
pretty nice to me these days, non of that slapping or shin kicking anymroe...=="

its like 4am atm...reminding me of good times =D
7am.
AHHAHAHA
that was WOW.
first time and since then NEVER stayed up that later....ON MSN that is.
not with anyone! wen i was young and energy filled :P
(only like...3/4 months ago)

if ur reading this, thanks bub! :)
for everything......-cough-2mil-cough-
=D

that just reminded me ("if ur reading this") of our BLOG conversations!!
how we posted stuff and KNOW that we'd read each others and reply!
i wonder how that ended :S

anyways bye buzzingbee1 aka pearnut.

BOREDOM POST

i dunno, im bored.
i miss u :(
havent been going out so i can talk to u :)
parents wont let me out much these holidays either :(

if i go out to the party on monday night...i wont get to see u on tuesday :P
i chose u! NO DOUBT =D
hahaha
well yeah
i havent been blogging for agess....
so yeah...thought id kick in and say to my readers "WADDUP HOMIE G DAWG"
=D

dont leave.

i know, uve told me before and ive obviously experienced it...
ur a very tiredsome person and get exhausted easily.
thats why u have to sleep "abit" earlier than everyone else...me.
u always say ur tired and ull be having a early night.
i say its okay. dw bout it. i understand..
and i do.
but i still dont want u to go.
some nights u say u want to stay to talk to me.
but i know, for some reason, deep inside u want to leave and go to sleep.
its okay. i really do understand that u need sleep.

what really DOES suck is that every night i stay up until 2am. and wake up before 8.
everynight before i sleep, i say to myself, tmr night is the night im going to sleep early. im going to finally get enough sleep.

pshttt. my ass =="

i come home seeing that ur not online yet. probably tutor, tennis or watever.
i get yelled at to eat dinner, but i insist im doing something important, im waiting for u to come online so i can say "im going to dinner."
but rarely u do actually come online at that time.

i finally give up and go eat.
i come back.
hey look ur online! :)
i havent showered, but i still talk to u first! i need to talk to u. ur an addiction.
when we start talking i soon feel as though ur not putting as much as a effort to keep the conversation going.
ur giving me closed answers with slow replies.

no matter, ill finally reply to other ppl who are waiting.
as soon as i come back to our convo, ur still not replying yet.
as im talking to someone else, ur name flashes.
i instantly stop typing and click onto our convo.
ooooh okay, i see how it is, awell maybe u are genuinely busy!

then u have to eat dinner, oh this is m chance to finally shower!!! look at the time, wow. nearly 9pm.

i come back, and im the one saying sorry i took to long.
well i do admit i take long showers :P

after dinner u come back and repeat everything, ur giving me slooooooowww poke replies. then u tell me that ur tiredddd!! hahaha go to bed silly. oh wat? u want to stay to talk to me? nah its okay go to sleep (NOT!! please stay, i want to finally talk to u.) "Okay"... wow...that was a quick change of decision :P
goodnight then.

okay well 11pm. after spending that time talking to u and waiting for ur replies, i can finally do the things i want to do. i start downloading music, watching youtube, blogging (like now), talking to some ppl that i "bbl"ed to to minimise my reply time to u :P

i have my phone next to me hoping u would call or something.
its finally 2am. i sit here wondering wat ur doing...probably sleeping.

okay im actually pretty tired now. i think imma go to sleep.

thats the end of my night. =|

i dont really mind....well i didnt really notice.
until tonight, we webcammed....u were obviously not "WITH" me.
u were doing something else, whether facebook, reading, tv. or watever.

at first i was sitting there, watching our convo slowly fade, hoping u would finally say something or even look at me.
i kept looking at u looking at something else that was obviously on ur screen.
or oooohhh and ahhhhhh -ing at the soccer.

i got irritated. so i starting saying "back" to all the ppl i have "brb"ed to to webcam u.
i start to fb more and read blogs.
sigh.
i wish u knew id much rather talk to u. but obviously u dont notice because ur reading/watching something.
then u start yawning.... ur tired. i told u to go to sleep (no stay and talk. call me.) u say u want to stay...i obviously knew u wanted to sleep. u finally say okay.

alright goodnights
goodnight.

(no i love you)

i could tell that u were pissed/bothered.
i tried not to care. i didnt start it. i start to read something my frend linked me.
i was touched. it was deep. i finished reading at exactly 1:11am
you instantly come to my mind. i felt bad...i felt guilty. doesnt matter who started it, i just wanted to end it.
i called u, knowing u might be asleep, i needed u to sleep knowing i was sorry.

i apologised, my heart sank. the problem was of course created partially because of me.
but my heart sank even more, to the thought that u just merely accepted my apology, not knowing there was a bigger problem u had created with small things that u dont notice ur doing.

after reading wat my frend had linked me, i realised how easily things could crumble if not taken or handled with care.
i just hope that u would see wat ur doing and how hard ive tried. i dont blame you. i blame myself for not solving it all earlier. its not to late, its never to late. i just hope u could see it urself because i realise now i cant do it alone.

im holding ur hand through the rain. now hold the umbrella with me with ur other hand.

its 2:13am, goodnight blogger.

PS: i love you <3

blue.

i knew this last night before i posted the last post.
i guess i sort of wanted to just see everything from another perspective.
but i think the pure feelings that i had for blue kind of influenced how the last post was written.
the question isnt blue or black.
its how to tell black, without crushing everything.

i wish i never knew. things would have been so much easier.
but i suppose it wouldve been painful for black.
i hate how this works. i hate how someone always has to get hurt, and thats because of me.

i was pissed off today. at school i was just to out of it.
but i suppose something about body checking and ramming wogs in soccer made me feel a tad better. :P

i appear offline because i dunno how to handle this. i dont know wat i should do. i dont know wat to say. but i know i have to sort things out. i have to for the sake of everyone.

i just sit there wondering....wat was it that i did? i dont remember doing anything...how did i get here?

"Men run away from their problems. A bad man would run away from the problem and never come back. A good man would run away from the problem until they figure out what to do, then they come running back."

blue or black?

wat do u do wen ur writing with a blue pen and someone offers u to write with a black pen? blues my favourite colour. but i want to write in black just not in english. probably in chinese. Chinese looks better in black.
i wouldnt want to just chuck out the blue pen, theres still plenty of ink in there. itd last me for alot of essays to come.
black does sometime work really well wen used. i enjoy black. but this blue is my favourite blue. its been with me through many tough essays. its served me well.

Anthony

Hi my name is Anthony and i love men
My lifetime want is to become a male prostitute, but not for the ladies, for the men.

O.O

ive actually tried really hardddd to stop doing the things I would usually do...
ive tried so hard to just control myself, not give myself in to temptations..
so many chances and opportunities where i could REALLY just jump out the window and grab a hold of, just let them pass me by.....why?
cos i really like my bird, and my bird means alot to me.

but stepping back and viewing wat is going on around me...i realise why should i try so hard? it SHOULD be a double effort.
i guess if she isnt going try as hard as i am...then why should i?
ive solely given up on believing that id be the only one on her mind. i guess its okay. nothing is for certain. i guess i UNDERSTAND, i mean there are once in a while when those moments come.
but yeah, i was in the shower...and had one of those "deep shower thinking" sessions..
and ive promised myself, i really dont care anymore, she has HER own freedom to wat she thinks and does. it wont effect me from now on :)

goodnight blogger.

fifa & last night

last night....wat can i say? i cant remember most of it.
7-8 bottles....thats about it...
crazy as night...
ive been told to many things, wat i did, wat i said blah blah blah.

got home, showered while drunk...had to lean my head against the tiled walls to keep myself standing...

this morning, giant headache...hungover like crazzy.

the only thing im not happy about last night was, that i lost my pink phone dangly teddy bear...it means so much to me...its gone now. my phone looks so empty. i feel guilty aswell...i feel like i let her down by losing it...

anyways, a few days late, but FIFA 2010 WORLD CUPPP!!
WOOOOTT
argentinaaa ftwwww =D

food

i just realised...looking back at the times i eat during the night after dinner...

that, everytime i eat, is wen im down.

food makes me happy i guess. takes my mind off things.
food has no problems, it either taste good or taste shit.
chuck out the stuff i dont like, and eat all of wat i do like.

leaves me satisfied.

confused

i dunno anymore.
i was pissed. now im abit more calm...
but i dunno..im still really pissed off...but i dont want this to just ruin everything..
i dunnooooooooo..

wat the serious fuck.

is this how its going to be?
just this?
if it is, then ...
...
sigh..
..
fuck it.

whatever..

u make it obvious that something is wrong.
i ask u wat. u say nothing.
i ask u to promise, u promised.
i didnt believe u.
i asked u to promise on our relationship, u promised.
i tried to believe u...

u kept sending these signs that something was seriously wrong.
if ur going to promise me but lie, then wtf.
if ur going to promise on our relationship and lie, then now i know how much WE mean to you.

im just trying to care for u and share ur load.
but obviously im not wanted or needed.

so watever, deal with it urself, deal with life urself, i dont give a shit anymore.

need.

need
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–noun

1.
a lack of something wanted or deemed necessary: to fulfill the needs of the assignment.

2.
a situation or time of difficulty; exigency: to help a friend in need; to be a friend in need.


You need me, but sometimes i need you.

i read it

last night u told me to read it.
i just got on, and remembered u told me to check it out.
just to let u know, i did read it...and dont be sorry.
im sorry for asking.
i shouldnt have.

im sorry for making it seem like i was pissed, i was just worried.

im sorry for today, the cake incident. it was just pissing me off how they kept on hassling u and wasting time.
i didnt say anything cos they were ur frends....im sorry for just bursting out swearing, i just got really pissed.
i got to the point where i wanted to punch the shit out of their faces....but they were ur frends...
im sorrry :(

im just sorry.

recent days

okay so i know that its been really shit with exams and all...
but looking pass that...its been pretty good for me.
after some pointless fights, that we've solved...
we're doing well, if not better :)
basically ive seen her everyday of the week :))))
and each day i just love her more <3

today was really really good.
finally got to use it :)
thats the way it should be :)
enjoyable :)

business and methods exam on monday then the GAT. awell :P shit happens :)
looking forward to holidaysss :))
WOOOOT!!!!

BOLD&italic

if u asked me would i promise to never hurt you.
id say NO. but i will promise to always protect you.
if u asked me if u MATTER to me.
id say no. you mean the whole world to me.
if u asked me do i like you for what u are.
id say no. i like WHAT we are together.
if u asked me do i think ur goodlooking.
id say no. I think ur the most beautiful thing that has ever passed me by.
if u asked me WILL i stay when ur down.
id say no. id STAY forever, even when ur at ur lowest.
if u asked would i bus to see u if u were 1000kms away.
id say no. id even go BY foot.
if u asked me to give u my jumper.
id say no. but everything i own is now YOURs.
if u asked me if u could take my side of the table.
id say no. youve already taken a giant SIDE of my heart.
if u asked me will u see me here again next week.
id say no. ill ALWAYS be here now, so ull see me tomorrow.
if u asked me to tell u what the highlight of my day was.
id say no. but ill tell u the highlight of my life, you AND i.
if u asked do i think would i love you for long.
id say no. long isnt enough. id love you FOREVER.