oh wow

so last night was retarded.
it was like an adventure for me and sam, walking from jordanville to holmesglen to pick up drinks, then back and to a park near jordanville at like....8-11pm?

dogged us out, fck you's.

well anyways, i dont remember much from lastnight...as i drank bottle by bottle, things got fuzzier and fuzzier, things got harder and harder to remember....
i THOUGHT i saw her....but im not to sure...
well the thing that bugged me all night even right after they went drinking, i went to aarons place then home. throughout the night even RIGHT AFTER i "THINK" i saw her, i felt badddd......cos i dont think i even said hello or smiled at her :S

wen i got home i was like to myself "holy shit, i HOPE its not her...if it is, i was sooooo rudeeee..."
so this morning, wen i saw paulskis (shoutout to him) i asked him if she was there. AFTER dinner at jordanville...
he said "i dont think soo.."
i was SOOO RELIEVEDDDDD
but THEN, he changed his mind..."wait. actually, yeah she was."
BAM. my eyes were about to roll out of my freaking eye socket.
i felttt sooo baddddd..... i cant believe i acted like that...now she probably thinks im some stuck up bastard whos to snobby and arrogant to even acknowledge her.
dammmmn that was gay.

id slap me if i was her. through all that. no hi.
well i hope that this means something, and i hope that some retarded internet error or wateva happens to send this particular message to her randomly :S
"im sorry for the way i acted, im sorry for the things ive said, im sorry for the pain ive caused. i dont beg for forgiveness, nor do i beg to forget. i just wish things didnt turn out the way they did."


sigh that was really lame of me. writing to myself about her.


ON ANOTHER NOTEEEEEE which hopefully would cancel out that lameness i put u readers through.....
aaron ur house has the best cookies :)
i like.

and...ZOMG GREYLEAD LOOKING PACERS FROM MONASH ROCK MY JOCKS!!!! :D

and...i met ur parents at monash uni! woot woot! :) apparently ur mum thought i had a nice smile ;) im in for the win. jokes :)
ur dad seemed like a average joe :) which is nnoooiiceee :)
and u looked taller! as i would always say, i like the new height ;)


ANNDD...
legal sac tmr. fck u skool...fck u....
OH and that just reminded me.
chinese skool teacher, if u stalk me and happen to read this. i fckn hate u.
who do u think u are...bagging me in chink, thinking i dont understand...i dont give a shit about wat u think about the way i sit nor wat haircut i get. how bout u go learn some proper english, THEN try to translate chink to us. ur a gay guy.

and choiboi. if u read this, i hope things workout for u and KitKat ;) u know wat im talking abouttt...

omg this post is so long. so thanks for reading, i really doubt anyone could be stuffed at all reading this much. so yeah i dont blame u if u dont read it. i guess i just want to find a excuse not to study for my legal sac....and just randomly wrote out most of my thoughts in the 2 days.

oh and if u actually DO read THIS particular line, u just won a prize.
-dun da dun da-!! a....FREE IPOD TOUCH!!!! please talk to paul nguyen to claim ur prize. thank u and goodbye.