blue.

i knew this last night before i posted the last post.
i guess i sort of wanted to just see everything from another perspective.
but i think the pure feelings that i had for blue kind of influenced how the last post was written.
the question isnt blue or black.
its how to tell black, without crushing everything.

i wish i never knew. things would have been so much easier.
but i suppose it wouldve been painful for black.
i hate how this works. i hate how someone always has to get hurt, and thats because of me.

i was pissed off today. at school i was just to out of it.
but i suppose something about body checking and ramming wogs in soccer made me feel a tad better. :P

i appear offline because i dunno how to handle this. i dont know wat i should do. i dont know wat to say. but i know i have to sort things out. i have to for the sake of everyone.

i just sit there wondering....wat was it that i did? i dont remember doing anything...how did i get here?

"Men run away from their problems. A bad man would run away from the problem and never come back. A good man would run away from the problem until they figure out what to do, then they come running back."