awkwarddd

so this post is about my frenchy frend.

omggg saturday at karaoke...i cannot believe u were outside as we walked out.
i was scareddd....i walked out saw u....and just like pushed my way to the back of the group.
but obviously i thought it was stupid...so i walked back out again and said hi.
but i could feel it, u didnt really want to talk to me..ha?

mmm its okay though :P

i still cant get over how fast it just collapsed...our frendship i mean.
it was all so quick :S
now we seem like total strangers...to wierd to say hi....to awkward to keep talking.

well i dont really know, but u seem pretty okay now, even though u dont really talk to me...but yeah, u seem like its all over.

i suppose thats good.
mmmm well now i feel alot better venting my thoughts out on my blog. so to u readers, dont bother asking me who my frenchy frend is, because we're strangers now.

its okay

we havent really "TALK" talked in ages. well quite some time.
well i suppose its a good thing that we have nothing INTENSE to discuss about,
cos we usually TALK talk wen something bad is down.
so i guess u could consider it a good thing.

but in all honesty, i feel like we havent been communicating as well as we DID.

its wierd cos id expect myself to feel really bad and fustrated about it and stuff,
but to my suprise im not :) i guess ive grown to adapt :))))

so if u feel bad, dont. i mean it this time wen i say, its okay.

BOREDOM POST

so yes, another BOREDOM POST :P


METHODS, ACCOUNTING ANNNNDD ENGLISH OUTCOMES ARE OVER :)))
two more to go though, legal and business D:

so im quite relieved...since all 3 of them were this week :)

but the stress of FUCKING CHINESE SKOOL STUFF is getting to me.
i get fustrated knowing i have so much to do in so litttle time.
but i just CANNOT concentrate or can be stuffed doing it.
sigh.

OH! SHE'S with her cousin from canada! :) sounds pretty cool! hope they're having fun! :D

OHH! and ive made up with my french frend now. well a few days ago. yeah....things turned out normalish. but its just wierddddd and awkward. but im sure that feling will pass and we'll be good friends again :)

oh HI pearnut :) LOOL
i duno wat to say about you. but hi if ur reading this. which u probably are! :P

and MR.PHILO, i hope ur making the right choice. u could be losing something more than u think. goodluck tmr man.

101th post :)

yes this is my 101st blog post :)
its quite a event :))))

very proud i actually took blogging on board, its kinda helped me vent and express myself throughout the time of need :)

hmmmmm
wats up....soooo...methods sac, accounting sac AND english oral is tmr...
not prepared AT ALL.

i got dogged today. FUCK U MATE IF UR READING THIS, i mean...CUNT =="
LOL

hmmmmmm....
yes so i probably SHOULD post something, since they specially MENTIONED on their blog i should post something about themmm....
hmmmm..so...first thing i want to mention, u cried. fckn pussy. LOL jokesss :))))
gnnawww i hope everything gets better. im sure ull be a good girl and not wag anymore, eveyrhting should be alright then :)
yeah, uve been quite nice to me. and yeah. thanks :)
i dont really know wat to write, but u should feel special ur in my 101th post.

LOOOL u apparntly got hurt cos of THIS post :(( im sorry.
ill add this bit on though :))
thanks for treating me as a real frend :)
but u really need to tell me wats wrong :( alot of the times u deny it until i FORCE u to spill the beans. u should tell me, i want to know :(
and yes. since day 1 we had a special connection, maybe cos ur a dude also, but we became besties in a night :))) i remember how we texted each other at my bbq the next morning wen i got like....4 hours of sleep! ahhahahaha!! that was funny.
oh and the webcam sessions were gold :)
especially now that u got toady :D
well anyways i hope u read this and go "gnnnnnawwww, he remembers"
i love you. WOOOOOPPS typo, sorry i mislead u :))
LOOOL


now...hmmm...to the bros :)
u brotherly cunts (cunt is the new mate) just yes. thanks for being there for me wen i needed, cept for the dog that made me carry my books in the rain alone ==" bitch. LOL

now to the special someone. hi there :)
we've been through quite a bit recently. we nearly destroyed wat we built :(
but the thing is, we're all good now, so thats wat really matters :)
i hope that nothings changed, well if so, for the better :)
i love you :) <3

wat else....okay so quite a few outings are dued soon in the up coming weeks.
im living off $30.
sigh. i think i need some money ;)

uhhh....and a little thing to go out to my french frend. things have changed... we dont talk to each other anymore. ive seen u around mc and stuff, but i dunno, i just feel this coldness. we're like strangers now. im sorry for the pain that ive caused. but i really do miss our frendship. hope all goes well :)))

oh and this really awesome tit that i met not long ago at frends birhtday. yes she is quite cool aswell....supposedly shes the fastest in her soccer league. LIES. must be a pretty shit league. LOL joookesss :) yeah shes nice to talk to. it feels like ive known her for ages...although its been like a weeek only :P

and now to the philo ESPECIALLY. all i have to say if ur reading this is, protect the ones that u love. smack those two fat and skinny white trashes. but mate, ur a true blue :)

to choi boy, i hope all goes well with u and ;;;;;)))) cos u know, through all that, i really think u guys deserve each other :) hope she likes the present we chose :D

to tomfirefag, happy fckn birthday dude. LOL abit late...but yes. dont doubt urself, u just havent met the right one yet. and as to ur studies, i think u should get a new swivel chair, its good for ur back, maybe thatd help u concentrate. :)

and as for the springy dog. FUCK U ditched ME!! yes i was alone in the rain carrying my methods book ==" faggot. but yeah u know, been bros for way to long to hold a grudge against u, if u read this, im over it. see u next sat. LOOOOLL!!!!

hmmmm lets seeee....mr.2pm.
yes a special post to u cos ur going to korea soon D: fuck man...i know we havent been frends with each other than the rest of those cunts. but mate. i'll miss u heaps :(((( ur the least dog man. uve stood by me in time of need. well done cunt.
and shout me tickets to korea wen u hit bigtime. we'll rock those korean ladddddieesssss ;)


and to whoever that just went through all the trouble just to read wat i had to write, thanks for reading my thoughts. it means something to know that someone cares about wat i have to say. :)))
about to eat dinner noww....
so LUHTERSSSS!! :))))

ps; if u read this ur special to me. but gay. :)

Usher Ft T.I - Guilty.

i dunno

ive been leaning on both sides. ive thought about it...
but i cant...i cant bare it.

ive tried....its unbelievably hard, especially knowing there are other things that are on ur mind lately.

this isnt the best time this came up.

im sorry for being hot and cold....
ill keep on trying.

maybe the same thing is on ur mind. and ur in the same situation.
i really dont know.

the last thing i want is to have u in pain....

ive changed

ive been thinking.
many different things to think about..
ive realised that there isnt always only 1 solution.
im trying to turn around and see wat the other sides all about.

imma change.
i promise u i will try to be the guy u want me to be.
trust me. i will try to never let u worry again.

i know its going to be hard, but for u, id do it.

i didnt know

i think i get it now.
i listened again and again. i couldnt understand.

until i came across "time and time again"
i got it.
although ive heard it many times, i finally understood it.

im sorry.
i dont know wat to do. i dont want to make a empty promise.
but i dont want to hurt u.

wat can i do......?

NEW PLAYLIST ->>>>

okay so i thought ppl might get annoyed wen going on my page and random songs start playing and the singing sorta puts u off reading.
so i took the liberty of finding just the tune playing in the background as u read.
i quite like it....but yeah.
After my last post, i was in a very rhyme-y rap mood, so i updated my playist with some rap songs im into atm =D enjoy faggggss =D

u asked me why

So you wanna know, why i love you,
I could write a whole book, and have it reviewed.
But im getting tired, and i dont have all night,
So i'll briefly explain, answer ur question why.

Number one, you truly understand me.
What i think is right, ud always agree.
Supporting me, in everything i do,
When i wanted something, ud tell me to pursue.
You keep my head up, when it is down.
When i fall, u pick me up from the ground.
You are my medicine, you are my cure.
With you next to me, i feel secure.
No matter what im feeling, or what im going through,
You're always here, to bring me outta the blue.
You've got a sweet voice, and a gentle touch.
Getting to this point, i miss you so much. :(
I enjoy everytime we're on the phone,
Hearing you speak, i know im not alone.
One simple kiss from you, takes me to the stars.
Jumping outta my chest, there goes my heart.
Holding your smooth hand, makes me smile.
Just seeing you, its all worthwhile.
Its amazing when, i look into your eyes,
i swear for a moment, im hyponotised.

People say; inside ugly, outside beautiful.
But obviously, that dont apply to you.
You should know, you are my light of my life.
Brighten up my days, this all feels right.
I dont like to lie, so heres the truth.
No matter what happens, ill always love you.
<3

i love you swanli =D

im here for u

girl:
"Sorry that im always surrounded by drama and you always get dragged into listening. I know you're thinking that 'its okay' but im still going to apologise anyway. Thanks for being here for me anthony, and sticking through everything. i love you."

boy:
"no no im not being DRAGGED into listening, im chosing to listen. i want to listen :)
and i know its pretty cliche saying this, but ur problems are my problems :)
i dont say this cos i have to. i've got a pretty damn good reason why i said that =D
its cos wen u have problems, ur sad. and wen ur sad im sad, cos i dont like seeing u sad :( i want to see u smile :)
so wen u have a problem, it directly effects me :(
i want to be there for u. i want to be the shoulder u lean on. i want to be the person u yell at wen ur angry. i want to be the tissue that wipes ur tears. i want to be the arms that hold u.
so u dont need to apologise for anything, its not ur fault that i love you :) ♥ "

- you know who u are ;)

talk

its been a while since we last d&m'd
i could feel uve closed up abit. maybe cos we havent talked in such a long time.
but just to let u know, since we last talked, i havent changed.
id still tell u MOST things. i dont want to say ANYTHING, cos thats a big word and there are some things that i really cant tell a soul.
so yeah.

but thanks for letting me in on apart of ur life and sharing with me ur load.
i must admit it did take alot of convincing for u to open up again :P
but im glad u eventually did.
the problems u THINK u have arent true. i can point out many things to just prove to u that ur worthy and that its not as bad as u think.

thanks for a night of sharing and care :)
goodnight gunboundgod.

"nicknames aren't to be taken, but to be given."

BOREDOM POST (2nd of the night)

okay i know. i alraedy posted a bordem post...
but yes. incase u didnt already know.
im opening up a title called "BOREDOM POST"
which i just post random shit about wats going on wen im bored just to consume time :P

im talking to BUZZINGBEE1 ATM as we aspeak.
yeah shes pretty cool :)))
pretty nice to me these days, non of that slapping or shin kicking anymroe...=="

its like 4am atm...reminding me of good times =D
7am.
AHHAHAHA
that was WOW.
first time and since then NEVER stayed up that later....ON MSN that is.
not with anyone! wen i was young and energy filled :P
(only like...3/4 months ago)

if ur reading this, thanks bub! :)
for everything......-cough-2mil-cough-
=D

that just reminded me ("if ur reading this") of our BLOG conversations!!
how we posted stuff and KNOW that we'd read each others and reply!
i wonder how that ended :S

anyways bye buzzingbee1 aka pearnut.

BOREDOM POST

i dunno, im bored.
i miss u :(
havent been going out so i can talk to u :)
parents wont let me out much these holidays either :(

if i go out to the party on monday night...i wont get to see u on tuesday :P
i chose u! NO DOUBT =D
hahaha
well yeah
i havent been blogging for agess....
so yeah...thought id kick in and say to my readers "WADDUP HOMIE G DAWG"
=D