so today i got a call from my aunty, she told me that my grandma's condition has gotten even worse and could pass away at any time.
so the everyone called everyone, and then entire family tree was rushing to see her, incase it was the lasttime.
at that moment, i was all the way in essendon. i had to catch a train to flinders and another train to parliament and leg it to the hospital.
my fkn phone was on low battery and was about to die on me, but thankfully paul lent me his phone to use for the emergency. not only that, he walked me to the essendon station which was like 20 mins walk from where we were. he found the quickest route to get to hospital for me, in which i am sincerely grateful.
paul had to get back to richard and erol so i jumped on the train alone.
i had never felt so bad on the inside before....the urge to see my grandma, the fear of not getting to see her for the last time.
i soon enough reached flinders, i rushed off the train and coincidently ran right into benny, who was going to meet US at essendon. i explained to him why i was in such a rush within 1 or 2 sentences.
"im rushing to hospital to see my grandma who might be passing away right now."
without any hesitation, this true brew replied "alright im coming with ya!" :)
with me, we ran pass a gazzillion people, and on the way he called richard, paul and erol whom we were suppose to be with, that he was coming with me :)
the train ride TO parliament, benny understood that wat mood i was in, and kept it cool, not awkward, but a comfortable silence, and i appreciate the consideration.
im really glad i bumped into this kunt, cos i had no idea where to go from parliament. he led me to the exit which was directly across the road from st vincent hospital :)
we ran the entire way, through the hospital blocks and to the elevator and shit like that. we got to the room, benny waited outside.
i walked in, i see everyone surrounding the bed, crying.
my grandma lay in the bed, motionless. her mouth just open, eyes closed. she couldnt move, and couldnt speak.
i tried to hold back my tears. i held gently held her hand and whispered "grandma, its anthony, can u hear me?"
well, according to the doctor, she could hear us, but she just cant respond.
grandma cant even eat right now. doctor says, her muscles are to weak and cant digest any food, if she was to eat, shed choke...
well yeah. after a good maybe 1 hour of weeping, more and more family members showed up. each time they would walk to the side of the bed and let her know theyve come to see her, but each time she wouldnt be able to show that she acknowledged that.
doctor says, shes at the stage where she could pass away any minute, but most likely in the next few days or weeks.
soon enough each of us left 1 by 1.
i walked outside and i saw benny sitting patiently in a seat near the help desk.
we went downstairs got some coffee to calm the nerves, talked for abit, casual shit.
the entire day, i wasnt in the mood to contact people about the situation. i didnt want to talk about it.
but i guess, its the true friends that understand exactly how you're feeling and what to do, even if you only tell them 1 or 2 sentences.
its at the time of need that you realise who your real friends are. those taht will stand by you through thick and thin. fucking its those people you will never forget.
thanks bros :)
and on another note, i thank this special lady whom texted me that she would be there if i ever needed to talk :) thank you dearly!
its such a kick in the nuts that i have a chinese oral sac tmr, which im not in the mood to study for....
im going to have to do it, THEN go visit my grandma....sigh.
im not a doctor, i cant do anything. all i can do is hope for a miracle
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