mood

i think its a combination of boredom and exhaustion, but im in a really CANNOT BE FUCKED + PISSED OFF mood.

i want to sleep, but its too early.
fucking dou maaaaaa rekgna;sdfnhks;hns;lnhgsnh;fkklsdfgf >:(

CHANGE OF DATES!

ok
so tonight 1am-ish was suppose to be a mini dirnkup with the guys at jordy station. but the date has been changed from tonight to MONDAY night because some people hadnt had enough time to get their drinks!
none the less, my mother was home and i couldnt sneak out :)

but yes, monday :D

relax birthday!

so basically, this year i decided not to have a party for my 17th and instead i just had a really chilled relaxing birthDAYYY (on my actual day) and drink up with the guys :)

it was a reallly reallllyyyy nice birthday! ive found like the bestest spot EVERRRR!!
its this place that looks over the city from kew :D
it was my friend who introduced me to such a magnificant place :)

afterwards i got a call from the tomfiredevil LOOOL! to go to bh with Marve :)
and from there we just played pool. well it wasnt reallly PLAYED since i just OWNED FLAWLESSLY! HAHAHHAHA :D

so anyways, that spot is now my one of my favourite places! i plan on going sometime next week again :)))

drinking tonight :D woooot!

birthday

so for those who are wondering "why the fuck hasnt anthony invited me to his birthday party yet...maybe he doesnt like me or forgot about me :("
well sad to say, its true. LOL JJJOOOOOKKKKESSS!!!
the real reason is, im not having a birthday party. i really cannot be stuffed going through all the effort to organise a place, invites, food, drinks etc. all that shit. its too much effort for me, so imma let this year just walk on past me :)

so wat i really want to do on my birthday is just to find a spot with someone and just chill there. just sit or lay down somewhere on some grass or watever with some music on a nice day and just talk/listen. so just basically enjoy life with someone :)
then on friday night probably drink up with the guys somewhere near my house or jordy station or something.

so if ur one of the people that can come out at like 1-2am on friday night/saturday morning then let me know and we'll get some drinks and drink up.

ideal birthday :)

DIX BACKFIRED :D

jenny says:
*EH
*YOU COPY CAT !
       - ant    hony     rapta(yn) says:
*NO
*UR a copy rat
*:D
jenny says:
*cats eat rats
       - ant    hony     rapta(yn) says:
*SO
*I EAT U
*:D
*dix
*im superior
*:D
jenny says:
*OH 
*CRAP
       - ant    hony     rapta(yn) says:
*big wordss
jenny says:
*OMFG
       - ant    hony     rapta(yn) says:
*(H)
jenny says:
*DUDEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE
       - ant    hony     rapta(yn) says:
*???
jenny says:
*WHAT HAPPENED LOL
       - ant    hony     rapta(yn) says:
*WAT
*HAPPENED/
jenny says:
*MY JOKE
*TOTES
*BACKFIRED ON ME
       - ant    hony     rapta(yn) says:
*OH
*LOOOOl
*AHAHHAAHA
*DIIIIXXXX HARD
*ALL OVER UR FACE
*:D
jenny says:
*THIS NEVER HAPPENS TO ME LOL
       - ant    hony     rapta(yn) says:
*u just got ruined.
*:D
*HAAAAHHA
*blog worthy :)
jenny says:
*LOOOOOOOL
*(@)
*HHAHAHHAHAHAHAHA

snap?

so tonight i found out that this guy has been trying to make a move and has been getting touchy towards my EX...and well, i know its none of my business anymore...but i cant help but to feel abit annoyed and fustrated.

i feel like i WANT to teach him to keep his hands to himself, but then again, who am i to be getting involved in her business?

sleeping while swimming :D

okay so this short tale litterally cracked me up!!!

so recently this really cool thing happened and i met a friend, whom in a sense i ALREADY sorta knew....
so we OFFICIALLY met at bh library wen i went to study with jess and melissa.
so the study session was quite fun, random talk and abit of the usual girl B!TCHING lol jokes :D

but yeah, so she starts revealing we use to go to the same chink school until she changed to suday classes and im supposedly some BROOMBOY that use to stuff around with brooms around chink school. ROFL! embarassing enough, apparntly me and my friends use to mock them around chink school ahahahah! sounds like us :)

and yeah so at a party like...a week ago, i got pretty drunk and dont remember shit all.
so she tells me that she was at THAT party and stuffs, but i was to drunk to remember a thing so yeah :S

ANNNYWWAYSS so that was a short intro cos i thought thatd be intresting and deserved to be blogged.
but BACK TO THE MAIN POINT!!

so she told me that today, she was like...SUPER tired and had like coffeee (which she doesnt LIKE) and coke trying to wake herself up, but none of that WORKED!!
and she went to her POOOOOL!! cos shes rich like that with a mansion and stuff!
she swam and NEARLY FREAKING FELL ASLEEP in the POOL WHILST SWIMMING! AHAHAHAHAHHA
wen she told me this, i litterally laughed OUT loud. it was funny at the moment....
i kinda imagined her doing backstroke then kinda geting sleepy and doze off and fade away into the water then struggling to get back up! AHHAHAHAHA!!
ok ok, so yeah thats about it.

oh and if ur reading this, ur a retard stay at richmond fest longer!!!! :(

body clock

ommmmgggg this isnt even funny anymore...i completely ruined my body clock...its like 3:20am atm and i still dont want to sleep....
i mean i KNOW for a fact that im extremely tired today....and that ive got gym tmr...but i just cant seeem to force myself to sleep...

i really hope i can fix this before school starts.. :S

gym tomorrow at 10.30am....wat a DRAAAGGGGG :\

2 more days

so its been nearly 1 month that we've been apart.
22nd of january marks exactly 1 month of our seperation.

i have to admit its been really hard not only to be away from someone whom i loved, but also to try forget them, to try and concentrate on something else and not think of that certain someone.
but i guess things are just barely starting to piece together.
that things will heal. that time and space does help.
we're just friends now, disregarding our hidden feelings either from me or her or both of us.

things will work, time will take us both somewhere where things make sense and put things in the past, not to be forgotten, but to be remembered....only as memories.

WTF

i just saw this photo on fb wen i was going through my photos.

this was on camp :P still gotta look good.

and as for the curry on the left, some faggot taxi driver that wouldnt share the bathroom with our cabin.

being back

so she came back from her holiday recently.
i obviously am glad she came back :D

but im just worried that sparks will light again D:

i try to hold back and watch wat i say, avoid wats possible.

but i cant avoid the fact i did actually miss her :(

well go with the flow i guess.

5000 views!

nice nice nice! 5000 views!
well its half of 10000 so u know its gotta be good :)

im quite happy that people are still taking the time to read what i have to write. so well done to YOU!! give urself a pat on the back! :)

ok nothing much else to say, hmmmm...

AH! yess! tmr is my first tsfx lecture for methods at 1.30pm - 5.00pm.
so please let me know if ANYONE is going to the same lecture!! cos yeaah, im going to be with paul and im hoping to see more of the ppl we know :)

i shall see YOUUUU soon ! :D

hurts

i dont know what it is, maybe its that we havent seen each other for too long.
i dont know how else to explain it...but i think...
without you, i forgot how to love.

i forgot how long its been since i last seen u....but it just feels too long.
its scary to think the one i loved the most is slowly becoming a memory, slowly becoming a stranger. i never want to see that day come, but im afraid nothing can stop time.

it hurts me to know that ur hurting.
it hurts me to break something i help build.
it hurts me to see apart of me slowly fade away.
it hurts me to remind myself we arent together anymore.
it hurts me to force myself to move on.

it hurts me the most to miss you.




ps: it took me litterally 36 minutes to write this. i didnt know how to express my thoughts properly.

getting use to.

its been a while now since we've been apart.
yes, we do talk, but only as friends.
its hard to suddenly change the way you talk to someone when you're use to the OLD way.
but i guess time does heal all.
it will take some getting use to for the both of us, but i think itd all be okay :)