to every beginning, theres an end.

yes so today, i went chaddy and city.
and i got a saxony shirt for $40 and a ck shirt for $35 :)
im quite happy with such but i cant seem to feel empty.

is it that i miss having someone around? or i miss the good times we had? or could it be im simply missing her.

wen she told me she missed me, it really hurt to see shes holding on. i want to say i miss her too, but i dont want to have to keep her hanging. i dont want her to wait for me, because nothing lasts forever.
to every beginning, there's an end.

MERRY CHRISTMAS

merry christmas to everyone.
thanks for the support throughout the year :)

i hope everybody has a nice christmas and gets tonnes of presents!!!


GET PUMPED FOR NEW YEAAARSSSS!!

pain?

yes it hurts. but i learnt today that being around ur friends at ur worst really relieves the pain. not only because being around ur friends make u happy, its more so they preoccupy u to not think about the pain :)

its more so, when ur alone. whether when ur walking, sitting or eating. u cant help but to think and reminisce about the good and bad times.
every word pops up into ur head. every word, every memory cuts u.

listening to the playlist of songs u both made over the time, every song with a different meaning, telling a different chapter of ur relationship with her.
everytime its 11.11 thinking about her, but have to hide it.

drinking doesnt numb the pain. it expresses it. but i dont want to express it yet.

Last words.

i love you deeply and truly with all my heart. you make me smile everyime you did. you make my sad everytime you are. the hardest thing i had to do, was to be someone i wasnt, someone trying to hurt you. im sorry. when it was dark, you made it bright. when it was wrong, you made it right. when i was lost, you were my light. i will miss you. i love you swanli chew <3

The hardest thing i've ever done.

2 sides of a story

no matter what the situation is, there is always two sides of a story.
people should really hear and understand the OTHER side of the story before making accusations and assuming one side is either right or wrong.

some may say or think im unworthy or undeserving, but all this time they've probably only been hearing one side of the story and already jumping into conclusions titling me as the "bad guy". To be honest, i am a bit frustrated because they dont know or understand, but then again, i don't really care, because i dont want them to.

Unnecessary Pain