go with the flow?

recently, i felt a change,
constantly, changing lanes.
where do we stand? i dont know,
im lost, confused, where to go.
what happened, to what we were,
left to right, like transfer.
i swear we were doing great, until now,
again, u shoved me into the crowd.
i dont blame u, its not ur wrong,
i understand u have bonds to keep strong.
that is why i resist and i take,
every hit, set backs coming my way.
although things werent fantastic,
did nothing, nothing drastic.
kept on going, like things were fine,
deep inside, wondering were u still mine?
thinking together do we still shine?
or me and you, both outta line.

lately something changed the view,
i did something, i wasnt meant to do,
all night ur mum had ur phone,
i called, just to hear ur sweet tone.
i cant believe i was so stupid,
my memory, overtaken by cupid.
i was scared, about to lose it,
insanity coming just to visit,
ur bombarded with questions and thoughts,
i cant do much to support.
its now down to u, what you really want,
write the same way, or change the font.
things got u questioning, about us,
"Is he mr right? or am i careless."
"Is this real or am i blind?
take it to far, can not rewind.

u need to decide on wat is right,
to take landing, or continue flight.
consider everything carefully,
differentiate wat u want, wat u need.
not about me, its about you,
not wat we are, but wat is true.
last thing i want, is u to hurt.
"promise to keep u safe", i assert.
its that claim, i plan to follow,
let it go? i dont want to,
wat to do? i dont know,
continue the show, go with the flow.



<3 goodnights. hope to see u tmr.

FANCY DRESS

alrightyyyyy so for fancy dress dated at 27/08/2010

me, thomas, andy, eric and sam dressed up as ninjas :)
i learnt how to use nunchucks for two days just for that night :D

it was a pretty good night :)

i made my own costume :)
we took alotta photos, well...alotta ppl took photos with US :)

we ran around taking ppls stuff and theyd chase us around the place, and wed confuse them by PRETENDING to give it to another one of us :)
it was fun =D

after that, we left at 10.30.
we ditched the afterparty and instead went to hansols place to showdown with him.
he had a watergun, while the 6 of us only had paper stars and our fake weapons.

we hid in shadows, behind cars and trees waiting to ambush him! :)
we had hima few times, i nunchucked him in the arm.

but he got us with waterguns....no fair.. :(

after everyone had left, me and hansol cruised in his mums car around his neighbourhood.
come to m suprise, hes a really good driver. cept for the fact he does 30 in a round about.... LOOOL!!
road hoon.

as i was in the shower u said....

   swanli         says:
*have a nice shower
*ill just keep talking to you here :)
*even though i know you wont reply :( but you'll have something cool to read when you come back :)
*so yeah ! :) i like going out with you :)
*im reading your blog atm, and listening to the music on it.
reading the post makes me smile so much :)
*i love you majorly very much (L)
*hm since i have nothing else to do, let me tell you some reasons why :)
*well, i know i always say that being around you, i can be myself.
but seriously, thats SO true.
like, with other guys, it always felt like i still had to impress them, even though we were already dating.
you know?
*with you, i WANT to impress you, but i don't feel like i HAVE to, because you're just so understanding :)
and you always make me feel good about myself, and you help me love myself :)
*oh and even though you bag me mostly, its funny and cute :)
and you always listen to me, and i can tell you everything :)
i can kind of treat you like a friend, but you're more than that?
hahah you're like my bestfriend and boy in one :) its awesome.
*hm, lets see.. what else ... oh oh , you still give me butterflies :)
i know its been 10 months almost, but everytime you look at me, everytime you kiss me and everytime you hold my hand
i still feel like how i did the first time :)
*i love it :)
*anyway i think this is gonna make your head hurt reading, so ill talk to you when you're back
*i love you (L)



- You officially made my entire year. that was the most beautiful thing ive heard anyone say to me. i love you baby, alot and forever <3

today :D

so its been quite a while since we last hung out PROPERLY.
but today made up for it all :)))

brief run down...
so today we went to a birthday party together. :)
although i didnt know anyone there (cept for laura) i had a goodtime just hanging out with u :)


although we lost the first pool game...we came back to win the second :)
and it wasnt JUST cos of me, it was teamwork, OUR WORK :))))

afterwards, wen they went to eat, we bailed to buy some dvds u needed to buy :)
so we walked for quite a bit actually LOL, but holding ur hand made the time fly,
i wish the walk went forever, so i wouldnt have to let go <3

NEXT, we went to eat :)
ur so cute and beautiful :) i felt like the luckiest guy in the whole world, being able to sit across the table from u. <3

i found it really cute how we kept on switching our meals :)))
and the way u say CHA SIU! :)

wen we were done, we walked out to go get our bags from the locker in state library, ONLY TO FIND, state library was closed D:
my bag and ur jacket was in the locker D: which i had to get next morning.

i was more worried that ud be cold, rather than my bag.

we went back to glen waverley together :) it felt so good how we held hands and laid our heads ontop of each others :)
ON THE WAY, we did a little detour.
and took the next train back to glenwaverley :)

after u left, i sat on the train all alone, wishing u didnt have to go :(

right now as we speak, as im writing this, i miss u alot :(
i know this probably isnt really nice, but i hope that u actually do wake up at 3am again and call me :(
i miss ur voice
well its quite late, and im suppose to wake up in like.....5 hours LOL
so yeah, goodnight baby, i love you. <3

goodnight blogger :)

blocked

okay so the other day, i was with a frend.
he signed into his facebook and came across a post u made.
suprised, cos i thought u had deleted or deactivated ur facebook...
soooooo by then, i kinda figured u reactivated it or something.

to see how u were going, i tried to search ur name.
but shocked to find, u werent there.
so it has come to my mind that u had blocked me from ur facebook.

at first, i was like "oh wth."
but now i guess its not really that bad, i cant blame u. not after all that.

so i guess u REALLY do want me out of ur life huh?
in that case, alright. done deal.

new playlistttttt ---->>>>

OMG its been quite some time since my latest post right...?
well atleast it feels like it!
sorry, ive just been OBSESSED with LORD OF THE RINGS FOR THE PAST 3 days!!!
i finished all three movies!!
i highly recommend u watch it. its alot more intersting and ACTION packed the second time u watch it, cos i guess ur older NOW and u understand the concept better...trust me, jsut watch it again, ull love it!! :)))) <3

hmmmm so wats going on? methods is being a dick, havent had the average required to do it next year...i shoulda tried harder for the last sac. awell...
so i need to try and study REALLY HARD to be able to do it next year....so thats my excuse if i dont post anything as often.

ive also noticed that some of my blogging frends havent been posting as often either. i suppose after some time u just cbs...
but keep posting!!! i read ur posts!! :)

and chinese zomg, so in regards to the oral sac, its been postpooned to THIS saturday...
so again im in the same sitation, i told myself last week this week would be my chink study week, but obviously i slacked off again, and now im sitting at my laptop wtfing...LOL

so in regards to any outings or parties i cannot attend, its due to my chink and methods. so please forgive :)

ANYWAYS, today, there were parent teacher interviews :D which means DAY OFF!!! dix on u avlia only half day. and DIX on u EVEN MORE GLENNY, only last period off! hahahaha!!

so yes, i met up with my special bird today :) <3
we havent had the chance to hang out cos of all this drama on her behalf and all this stress on mine.
so today was good. :D

i feel so fat, had so much foodd...
well yeah...

SOOOOOOOO!!!! other than just letting in to u readers wats been going on lately, heres some songs :)
enjoy them as i have :)

CHINK SAC TMR!!

omgg.....stressingg...
chink oral sac tmr...
im not ready at all.
and if i dont do good in this, my teacher says he'll fail my 3&4 :(
i cant seem to be able to memorise my detailed study within 2 nights.
LOL
probably should have started earlierrr...

my general conversation is just wtf. its not even MINE.
i took jess's :) thanks :)
havent had a chance to memorise that either...

jason lee's class says their sacs been postponed...
so im hoping that goes for the entire year level..
but yeah, something tells me its not. LOOL

awell.
im hopinggg.....